Morgan with her family
What if there could just be a joint effort to solve crime? Everyone involved working toward a common goal – the truth. Remember the truth, it doesn’t change, stands the test of time, is certainly beyond a shadow of a doubt, will always remain convincing, and to be a preponderance of the evidence, is easy for the truth. I did not start Morgan’s blog to convince someone of MY truth. I wanted to share what I knew to be true, what I had been told by doctors and every expert that Steve and I have been referred to, good and bad its all in here somewhere. Except of course for the few smoking guns I’ve been advised to withhold for the time being.
Wouldn’t it be nice if I were sharing all this with the Sheriff and the Coroner to clear up all the questions of Morgan’s case. I would have like that, but instead I have received nothing but antagonistic responses the Sheriff and Coroner the instant I had an opinion that differed from theirs. I know better now, but I still think about how it would have been so so nice if the Sheriff and the Coroner had been actually interested in solving the death of Morgan, catching her stalker before he just does it again? Bad guys behind bars, the valley a safer place. I have discovered the hard way that questioning anything they have concluded just causes an immediate and very serious case of ruffled feathers. And why is that? Wouldn’t it be nice if we were working together on a crime, I really thought it was happening at first and then all of a sudden it became an argument about who is right, and how nothing should ever be questioned, and that was on a good day.
I’m sure I have said this before but, always remember, it is not me and my opinion, it is an opinion of someone who should know that we have sought for their expertise. An opinion I double check, and triple check and in the beginning I was so naïve I would just tell our Detective thinking he would welcome the truth with open arms. I thought the contracted forensic pathologist would be open to medical expertise far more specialized with far more assets at their disposal to be called upon, but no, not in my experience. Especially since Dr. Kurtzman (the forensic pathologist that did the autopsy) said on the first PER (where he put her manner of death as natural), “Due to an active stalking investigation at the time of this report, and the potential influence of stress, the manner of death may be reclassified if additional pertinent information becomes available.” So we went about writing, calling and emailing Morgan’s doctor’s and experts in different medical fields to correspond with the forensic pathologist with their findings. First there was the discussions about how his interpretation that the amitriptyline levels on the first toxicology results were ‘insignificant’ and completely dismissed as he concluded, “the absence of significant toxicology findings”. Steve and I had so many experts write, try to call, try to email him that it was not insignificant, quite the opposite, and that their should be an investigation opened into her manner of death. He wanted the input at first, but I guess he feels he does not have to listen, and he was not about to…no matter what he wrote on the first PER. Now on the second PER (almost 9 months later) he wrote her manner of death as suicide, but stated in the report that, “if objective information is produced indication that the decedent was somehow forced against her will to consume an amitriptyline overdose and observed until incapacitated the manner of death may be reclassified as homicide.” Well we now have objective information that will show that she did not inject herself with a lethal dose of Amitriptyline (enough to kill a horse) and was unable to give herself the other drugs that were in her gastric fluid when checked on the second PER because she would have been unable to that at that time…does that mean there would still have to be someone in the room watching this sick predator watch Morgan until she died in order for this to ever become a homicide in Dr. Kurtzman’s opinion? We have come to wonder what is is he really is thinking.
I think everyone will agree, well almost all of us, that there are differences between the abilities of one person, and the abilities of another. Say the crime lab in Garfield County and the FBI lab in Quantico. I have never seen either one, but just based on what I hear and what seems logical the FBI lab in Quantico might be a little better, in fact I’m confident it is a lot better. No slight on Garfield, just the way it is. What about investigations? Could there be a law enforcement unit with more expertise and resources than Garfield County? Once again no slight on GarCo, just the way it is. What if this law enforcement agency was not a federal agency in another state, but right here in Colorado? They are called the CBI (Colorado Bureau of Investigation) and capable of a microscopic investigation of the crime scene instead of what Morgan had. If all it took was a phone call, why would Garfield County Coroner’s or Sheriffs have not called in the CBI the morning that Morgan’s body was found? Did they not care about my daughter? Were they worried that if they collected real evidence like her sheets, pillow cases, used better equipment to scan, do a more thorough job that there would have been a different result? My guess is there would have been a drastically different result. Not my opinion, but the opinion of those that do death scenes every day. Now why didn’t they call them in?
Then I have one more burning question. If one of these other’s Steve and I have involved with more resources and expertise wishes to point out a mistake, what is the problem with that? On a conference call with the Forensic Pathologist he freely admitted not being very knowledgeable when it came to AIP a certain area of medical knowledgea forensic pathologist really does not have much use for. He said he rarely, if ever comes across it, in fact this was the first time. He even suggested out on the coast in the bigger hospitals they might have a better understanding of AIP than he. And was he ever right. UCLA medical center has thousands of doctors all specializing and all sharing their knowledge to help. What a concept. Of course when they wanted to talk with Dr. Kurtzman about it, all of a sudden he is the expert, he is arguing with them. How in the world does that help Morgan or anyone else get justice? His ego is more important than the crime being solved? And if the crime is not solved who loses out besides Morgan and her family? The rest of Garfield County where there is still a predator at large.
When I hear about how things could have been conducted, or should have been conducted. About how agencies right here in Colorado are equipped to do a better job, but were not even allowed. It breaks my heart, every victim deserves the best we can give them. And that is not what happens right now.
I read very recently that a group has been formed to explore ways the image of Colorado can be protected in the wake of all the National attention grabbing violence that has gone on in our state over the last year. To me this is really one of those times when treating the cause and not the effect has never been more true. Poor tactics, and an ego that could not accept help from others who did know, doomed my daughter. Once a stalker and a person capable of murder entered her life the way they did, Morgan’s life was forever changed. And sure we had choices that we did not implement, but the sad truth is until you do it and live out your life, you really don’t know if it worked or not.
The single most repeated piece of advice I have received about Morgan’s case is that she herself or all of us together should have moved out of the area. And it really doesn’t bother me to be second guessed, it’s a good thing. Only by exploring all the options will there be new solutions. And I direct all of you who have not seen it to the stalking page of Morgan’s website.
Right above the picture of Wylah comfortably riding on Morgan’s shoulder is a three part story from Lifetime about a woman who was stalked for years through different states before she was finally gunned down by her stalker. When that man came into her life, it was forever changed. There is a very sad reason, a cause for her death, and we need a better way to treat it, because left to deal with the effect or ignoring the cause changes even more lives forever. When it does not have to be like that.