Part 4 – Misconceptions or Misdirection & Lies…

crime scene photoSorry this part has taken me so long to release.  I have spent many months now getting some important tasks completed first.  This is the last part of my “series” of factual details.

First I would like to say that I will not defend myself, as I do not feel there is any reason to do so.  I made mistakes, as did Morgan’s dad Steve, and we freely admit those mistakes.  We both made the conscious decision to share our mistakes with others in order to raise awareness, and hopefully save another victim of stalking somewhere down the line.

We lost our youngest daughter to the horrific crime of stalking and murder, so ego no longer has any place in our lives. I really don’t care what people may say about me because I know who I am, I am a mom that loves her children more than life itself, but I made mistakes thinking I could keep my daughter safe, and lost my youngest child…if I had not made any mistakes would her stalker still have been able to find Morgan and kill her?  I will never know the answer to that question.  If I had to do it all over again, with the knowledge that I have now, maybe Morgan would still be alive, but in life you usually do not get any do-overs.  What you usually get are lessons to learn from – and some lessons like this one will tear at your heart for the rest of your life. The lessons I have learned from Morgan’s stalking and murder have driven me to share them with others so that hopefully another mom and dad may be spared the indescribable pain of losing their child to a predator.

I have written these 4 parts in order to try to help the people that want to understand the truth, so they can have a better understanding about what really happened in Morgan’s case.  Morgan did not die from natural causes as the coroner tried to convince us of for 8 months…she was murdered and the wrong conclusion in her manner of death intentionally kept her case from being investigated.

Morgan also did not die from suicide, she was a victim of an active felony stalking investigation, all the evidence points to murder and she was murdered during that active investigation into her stalking.  She died only 2 days after the felony stalking detective, Rob Glassmire, told us that he believed her stalker was going to escalate!

Morgan loved life and was trying in every way she knew how to stay safe, to stay alive and to continue her life…this wrong manner of death that the coroner changed her to, approximately 8 months after her death, it was changed in order to keep us from trying to have her death investigated…and it worked!  It came after I was threatened multiple times by the forensic pathologist, Dr. Robert Kurtzman, and yes, Steve & I are both victims as well (read the sheriff’s reports), and yes there is a law against threatening victims.  The pathologist, Dr. Robert Kurtzman (no longer working in Colorado – now working in Montana after our complaint to the Colorado Attorney General was received), engaged in pure speculation, instead of using the scientific evidence and medical certainty.  I have spoken with the forensic toxicologist that actually ran Morgan’s toxicology tests, and he told me that it is EXTREMELY frustrating when pathologists take their scientific test results and interpret them incorrectly, instead using their own personal “WILD SPECULATION.”  Dr. Kurtzman has already been “smacked down” by the Supreme Court in Colorado on at least one other case that I know of, for injecting his own “speculation,” instead of using only scientific facts and medical certainty on his Post Mortem Examination Reports (re: Jensen boy’s case in Colorado).  This is EXACTLY what he did on Morgan’s Post Mortem Examination Reports – and his incorrect, unscientific “Manner of Death” conclusions, first of “Natural Causes”, then of “Suicide” were both wrong, but both kept her case from ever being investigated.  And to top it off – Dr. Kurtzman, according to Colorado law in May of 2011, made him (the forensic pathologist), responsible for the investigation – which he did not do.  He would not even accept any scientific evidence or statements of medical certainty from Morgan’s doctors, because of his arrogance, and because it was contrary to his personal non-scientific conclusion.  Instead he threatened me to stop having Morgan’s doctors and other forensic specialists contact him, or else he “could” change her manner of death…which he then did.

Morgan’s family, friends, teachers, classmates, employer, and associates were not interviewed as would normally be the case if a suicide was suspected, and an investigation would be conducted.  But this erroneous claim that Morgan committed suicide, with absolutely no evidence to back up that claim, in essence kept her case from being investigated, and kept other agencies from investigating as well, because she was not ruled a homicide, or undetermined, which is what her suspicious death should have been.  This has been done over the years in many other cases, besides Morgan’s in Colorado, and is still happening 5+ years later.  There have been more than 4 other cases since Morgan’s murder, in Colorado, that I know of personally that have been called a suicide, but the evidence indicated that they were most likely homicides.  The coroner & law enforcement in those other cases would not change those determinations and would not run the tests needed or do an investigation either.  In fact, not even once would the Garfield County Coroner, Trey Holt, ever speak with Steve or I about Morgan’s case...NEVER! What does that tell you?

A coroner in Colorado is an elected position –  the coroner is only required to have a High School Diploma and be a US citizen – he/she doesn’t need to be a doctor or have any medical training…it’s true!  State law encourages, but does not require, candidates for the office of coroner to possess knowledge and experience in the medical-legal investigation of death.  State law requires coroners to determine the cause and manner of death.,_Referendum_C_(2002)

Steve & I continue to ask questions, continue to do our due diligence and continue to come up with more and more factual evidence that not only proves Morgan was murdered, but has also shown us that her case is much bigger than what we had ever imagined.  This was our daughter & we want answers, and boy have we gotten them.  But with all the evidence and facts we have the Garfield County Sheriff and the Coroner still refuse to ever open an investigation into Morgan’s death – why?

Remember for the first 8 months Morgan’s manner of death was being called natural causes by the Garfield County coroner.  And this is what I would like everyone to know – 20-year-olds, that are in great physical condition, with no pre-existing medical conditions, do not just up and die for no reason (there is always “something” that causes their death) – there was nothing natural about what happened to Morgan.  So we started to ask questions.  Then Morgan’s doctors started to ask questions. The Garfield County Coroner’s office would not answer these questions – they used the old ploy of avoidance to try to get us to go away, but we kept asking.  We were in shock over Morgan’s death, and we still trusted the sheriffs, so we wanted to believe what we were being told by them, but we were not being given any honest answers – only a complete runaround.

Finally forensic experts who we asked for guidance (forensic experts that would not charge us – they helped us pro bono), got involved, and they said the coroner had gotten her manner of death wrong!   She actually had died from a massive dose of a date rape drug (Amitriptyline), a drug that she did not, and could not have taken in the amount that was in her body (it would have needed to be injected, not ingested), and it looked like foul play, they said there needed to be an investigation.  At that point we could not understand, for the life of us, why Garfield County was refusing to open an investigation – then we were told by the lead sheriff’s detective, Rob Glassmire (who is now the new coroner for Garfield County) that the Garfield County Coroner’s office has NEVER, ever had a coroner’s inquest.  Then when other experts got involved the sheriffs themselves decided to close Morgan’s stalking investigation…we were told, no victim, no stalking to investigate – what were they afraid of?

We then had the new evidence forwarded to the District Attorney’s office, who was then told by the pathologist that there was nothing to investigate, it was just bad blood between him an the the other Medical Examiner, Dr. Dobersen, and that Dobersen had gotten the Ingram’s all “riled up” for no reason…and the 9th District DA at that time, Martin Beeson, bought it.

And that was just the beginning of the one-liners, one-liners that had no truth to them, being tossed about to people that questioned why Morgan’s suspicious death was not investigated.  No one was listening to the evidence – no one I should say that could “legally” get involved.  Many agencies in Colorado have wanted to get involved, but due to Colorado law those who are now covering up Morgan’s murder are the only ones that can officially allow another agency to investigate – and that isn’t about to happen as long as the sheriff, Lou Vallario, is in office.  What does this say for other victims of stalking?  What if your stalker can torment you, torture you and then end your life and get away with it, because law enforcement does not want it to be a case? What does this say about the protocol of Garfield County, in the way they handle stalking and murder cases – when they sweep them under the rug?

  • The coroner said Morgan withdrew from all her normal activities the last weeks of her life…what a blatant lie!  Morgan was exhausted & stressed from the stalking, as her father and I were as well and as would be expected, but she continued going to school (her report card was straight A’s for that semester), she went to a concert, was with friends, went into Aspen with Steve & I for Thanksgiving dinner at the Maroon Club, she was laughing and baking a cake just five nights before her death, with her cousin and a friend, started dating a new boyfriend, had many friends over to our house to socialize, was working on multiple homemade presents for her friends for the holidays, had lists of babysitting jobs in Aspen on her calendar that she planned to do over her Christmas break from school, she had her official letter acknowleging that her college credits had been transferred & accepted to the new college that she was planning on attending, she had her application for her yoga certification ready to mail, got a new hair cut, got her nails done, was working on knitting an absolutely gorgeous, all natural dyed wool blanket for her bed…she had spent the last of her money, from her part time job, to order and buy the wool.  She was very excited about it.  She was knitting a pattern into the blanket that had woodland creatures in it.  It is beautiful, but she never was able to finish it, as her life was cut short.  Does this sound like a young woman withdrawing to you?  Morgan was a very strong young woman – her stalker(s) kept ratcheting it up, but Morgan’s way to fight back was to keep going, as much as possible, as to not let them win, so for the pathologist & coroner to lie about her withdrawing from life is absolutely disgusting – but in Colorado homicides are being disguised as suicides, which in turn has allowed murderers to remain free to kill again, and again.  There are now over 1800 cold cases in Colorado, and cases like Morgan’s, which are disguised as suicides, are not even part of that statistic – I wonder what the true number really is?
  • Unlike some rumors running around, Morgan did not have a prescription for the drug they accused her of taking, and she was not missing any pills out of an old expired prescription bottle, the few pills that were not in the bottle were all accounted for.  The old prescription she had was a low strength med for chronic headaches from years before, a med that she had stopped taking, and would not have reached those levels even if she had taken all of what she had, which she didn’t because they were still in the bottle.  The lethal level she had in her body could not have been ingested because she would have died way before it could have reached that level in her blood, so it was plausably injected into her (and we do have a crime scene photo that looks like an injection wound with a bite mark around it!), and the sheriffs found nothing in her room or in the house that could have been used to administer the drug – it was obviously taken away by her murderer.  And the drugs that were found in her stomach were not found anywhere in our house – how many red flags were needed for the sheriffs and coroner?
  •  When we found Morgan’s body it was definitely a staged crime scene…she did not have a seizure that caused abrasions on both hands, wrists, inside her arm and on her breast,  She had broken nails (the pathologist said he did not check for DNA because he was not instructed to by the sheriffs), a flattened nose, matted hair and swollen lips with blood on them, as well as blood on her forehead.  Get real…if she had had a seizure there would have been an indication of that and the forensic pathologist would have seen it…also, if she had had a seizure that did that much damage to her body, then why did we find her on her right side with the blanket pulled up to her shoulder, and why was she posed as though she was peacefully sleeping?  She had minute spots that appeared on her chest under the UV light (this is in the police reports), that were never tested – they were most likely bodily fluids, an indication of a sexual assault, that someone had attempted to clean up.  These spots were never tested and NEVER mentioned in the autopsy PER.  We sent emails, certified letters, you name it we did it, in order to make sure they kept her clothes in evidence to be tested for DNA, but guess what – they went ahead anyway and destroyed the evidence, in what most people would consider destruction of evidence.  Her pants were unbuttoned and unzipped (she was not checked for rape), as well when she was found, and her lividity did not appear to have formed while her clothes were on her body – so she was plausibly redressed by her murderer and her body was moved post mortem indicating a staged crime scene. Does that sound to you like natural causes or suicide?   All of these things were seen by the sheriffs and deputy coroner the very morning that her suspicious death was supposedly being investigated.  These things show foul play, BUT were covered-up.  We kept asking questions, but were not given answers.  They just wanted us to go away.  Why?
  • We also know her body was moved after death because we found her in a completely different position than her lividity showed she died in.  The body always tells the true story – she died face down, in a strange position, as though bent over a chair, left in that position for some amount of time, which caused her lividity to fix, so her body was able to show EXACTLY what position she died in.  But we found her lying on her right side, in her bed, her right side of her head on her pillow, and her down comforter pulled up like she was sleeping naturally, but again I will say…she was not sleeping naturally – she was dead, fists clenched, arms bent, knees bent, eyes wide open, and curled up in a contorted position, a position that could not have been caused by her body just being rolled over onto her side somehow after she was dead…no, someone had to lift her and place her in the position we found her in, oh, and they were also very careful to pull her comforter up over her so it would look natural, just like in the 19 year old University of Wisconsin theatre student Jessie Blodgett’s murder – who was sexually assaulted and strangled in her bed, then staged as though she was sleeping peacefully, which is what her mom thought when she first went into her room. In this case again there was no sign of forced entry into the house.  Her parents NEVER heard anything while they slept in the same house as their daughter.  Please note her 20-year-old murderer was convicted of first degree murder.  And I believe (just like I believe in Morgan’s case) that he was a serial killer in the making.  Read the article or others on the internet and decide for yourself.
  • Also, Morgan’s bottom bed sheet and the PJ’s she was wearing when she went to sleep were missing and were never found.
  • Some of her jewelry and other personal things were stolen that same night, but the sheriffs never wrote up a robbery report…starting just days after her murder and continuing for the entire first 5 months after her murder, the lead detective and I discussed the missing items – he knew about them, he knew the detailed description of these items, but never officially reported them.  And yes, the discussion about these missing items started within days of Morgan’s murder, not months later, as some people have tried to say, and yes I do have emails to and from the detective that corroborate this.  Then another Garfield County sheriff  detective, Detective Lemoine, had the nerve to call us 1 month after Morgan’s murder to ask us if our cameras had picked up anything 2 nights before her murder, when our next door neighbor’s house had been robbed!  Yes, robbed, the same exact night that Morgan had to leave our house just before 1:00 am because her stalker was being relentless, tapping on her bedroom window.  The same night when we called the sheriffs and they said it would take them probably 45 minutes to get back to our house, because they had just returned to their station after checking out our next door neighbor’s burglary (I posted the picture of the patrol officer on an earlier post, note the date and time).  I was incensed!  And guess what?  Our next door neighbor’s robbery that they were investigating showed no signs of forced entry either…but they still believed in that case that it was a burglary, and they still had an investigation, something Morgan did not – why was that?  And to top it off there was no report written about what happened to Morgan that night, they only listed it as “trespass” on the sheriff’s report and it was just 2 nights before her murder!  Why would that be all they wrote?
  • Her panic button was ripped off of her nightstand, and found in a corner of her room on the floor.
  • Her neatly folded and stacked and laundered clothes, from the night before, were scattered all around the room on the floor, vacuum knocked over, clearly showing an indication that a struggle had taken place, but instead the sheriffs wrote in their report her room was a mess.
  • Morgan’s panic button had been ripped off her nightstand and tossed i a corner, her cell phone, that she always kept in bed next to her while she slept, was tossed across the room, landing under her bathroom door, her laptop (that she was always so careful with) was tossed on it’s side off the side of the bed.  All of these were indications of a struggle.
  • Morgan had her puppy in her room, and her puppy did not make any noise that night, none that we know of anyway – it is possible that we did not hear her make any noise, because Morgan’s door was closed, and we were on the other end of the house with our door closed. Steve & I had both taken sleeping pills (we were so exhausted)…BUT I would like to point out that her puppy had NEVER barked before that, and even the next morning with strange first responders rushing into Morgan’s room with all their equipment, Morgan’s puppy, Wylah, was sitting up on Morgan’s bed, watching everyone coming and going, and NEVER barked or reacted – she seemed dazed and confused.  So to think that because Morgan had a puppy in her room, and we never heard a bark, while she was being attacked, should be somehow construed that there couldn’t have been an attack is completely absurd.  To me that is pure ignorance, spoken only by people that obviously do not know or understand dogs, or maybe they just have an agenda…
  • Contrary to what some people may think there were none of Morgan’s expired prescription pills missing out of the bottle, they were all accounted for, and she had never taken any of the other date rape drugs later found in her stomach, and we never had any of those drugs in our house…where did they come from?  How many 20-year-old girls do you know that would take a combination of date rape drugs?  If that in itself is not suspicious, I guess nothing is.  All these details were given to the sheriffs, forensic pathologist and coroner, but none of them would discuss this with us or her doctors.
  • Morgan’s toxicology results show that she died from a massive amount of a date rape drug that she could not have even ingested herself in that amount – if it had been ingested she would have died once she ingested 1,000 ng or less because of her body weight, but the amount she had in her blood was closer to 10,000 ng, when you add in the metabolite — closer to a dose for a 1,200 lb. horse. If this dose is administered by an injection then the whole amount can be put into the blood, before it causes death.  The massive amount, along with the metabolite of the drug, actually disproves the pathologist first theory that she had been taking her old medication in secret…not true.  The scientific lab results show conclusively that this was a one-time massive dose.  In addition the second toxicology results show additional date rape drugs that were put in her after she was dead or almost dead (and yes, we are pretty sure we now know how they did it) – another red flag and one that Garfield County refused to acknowledge.
  • The very morning of her murder the lead felony stalking detective on Morgan’s active stalking case told Steve & I that there was no sign of forced entry, no sign of sexual assault, no sign of a struggle, and no sign of suicide then he concluded her death had nothing to do with her stalking – he said it was a mystery and we would have to wait for the results of the autopsy & toxicology results.  News flash, this detective is now the NEW coroner of Garfield County, Garfield County Detective Robert Glassmire is now the new Garfield County Coroner.  I will tell you right here and now this detective knew for a fact that Morgan did not commit suicide – he even discussed it with us, and said in cases like hers they always look at suicide, but he told us that was not what happened in Morgan’s case.  And then 8 months later the coroner changed her from natural causes to a suicide, with no investigation or evidence of suicide.  And I will repeat this again, this was after I was threatened by the forensic pathologist to back off with all my questions and medical experts that were trying to explain to him that his assumptions were wrong (experts, not us were saying this).  What were they trying to hide or who were they trying to protect, or was this total arrogance and incompetence?  I do not believe for one moment that it was the latter. get out of jail free
  • It is now 5+ years after our daughter’s murder. Our families interactions with the Garfield County sheriff, and basically non-interaction with the coroner (solely on his part) have led us to conclude that we will have to continue to investigate Morgan’s case on our own in order to bring the perpetrator(s) to justice.  I know it’s not fair, but like my grandmother used to say, “it is what it is”…not only for us, but for other families in similar situations.  You have to be your own detective/private investigator, and you need to put together a solid case with facts and evidence that you can bring to an agency much higher up.

What Morgan suffered through for 4 months of stalking was horrible, and what she obviously suffered through before giving up her very last breath is horrifying – I will say to anybody that can sit back and make up lies about what happened to Morgan, just to make them feel important and feed their ego (the victim blamers), that you are not only doing Morgan and our family a horrible disservice, BUT you are condoning what the Garfield County sheriff & coroner did to Morgan by covering up her murder.  They obviously had their reasons for doing what they did, and it is so very wrong!  Morgan was murdered, and there is no way it can be justified, she is no longer with the ones that love her. She was horrifically stalked, and her life ended in a heinous murder.  And what does this portray for other victims of stalking, if Morgan’s stalking and murder can now be covered-up, and a murderer is allowed to run free? I do not believe she is the first, and I do not believe she will be the last, unless we all band together and say enough is enough…we want accountability, we want transparency, we want our children and the women of the county and the world to be protected against criminals, not the other way around – WE WANT THE TRUTH EXPOSED, SO PLEASE HELP US DO JUST THAT!  

Justice for Morgan in 2017!  Share this with everyone you know.  Thank you!


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WHY DIDN’T HE MENTION, AND TEST, THE “SPOTS” SEEN UNDER THE UV LIGHT ON HER CHEST?  These “spots” were mentioned in the police report and the First Responders said it wasn’t from anything they used on her when they took over. What good is using a light to scan a possible crime scene for bodily fluids, if the light detects things, and those things are ignored and never tested…how does this make any sense?  Is this called investigating and following where the evidence leads?  I think not even close – why are possible crime scenes investigated by untrained people without any clue about a proper crime scene protocol?

HOW COULD THE PATHOLOGIST NOT BE SUSPICIOUS OF THE “ABRASIONS” AND “BROKEN NAILS” ON MORGAN’S RIGHT HAND, WRIST, AND BREAST, AS WELL AS THE WOUND ON HER FOREHEAD, AND INJECTION MARK ON THE INSIDE OF HER ARM? The crime scene photos, taken by the Deputy Coroner, clearly show this evidence, but the pathologist just glanced over it – I guess it didn’t fit his personal “speculation.”  The forensic pathologist, working for the coroner, in the state of Colorado at that time was the person responsible for the investigation of the crime scene, as well as the autopsy. He ignored all evidence, did not want any information from Morgan’s doctors, or family or other forensic medical examiners, ignored the scientific evidence from her toxicology reports and refused to fix all the mistakes he made on his reports.

HOW COULD HE NOT BE SUSPICIOUS OF THE “ABRASIONS” AND “BROKEN NAILS” ON HER RIGHT HAND –  These would normally be considered all obvious signs of a struggle.  What about the injection mark, with what looks like a bite mark over it, on the inside of her arm?  How the hell can he ignore that when she had a date rape drug “amitriptyline” in a massive amount (10x’s what would have killed her) in her blood – the amount that would have been in a vile at the ranch behind our house that “they” had access to, enough for a 1,200 lb. horse!

Why didn’t  the pathologist, Dr. Robert Kurtzman, do a rape kit on Morgan to make sure she wasn’t sexually assaulted?  Her pants were unzipped and unbuttoned and there was visible liquid on her pants, that even the First Responders wrote about – and yet no mention of this is in the pathologist’s reports, and he told me over the phone, that he is not allowed to do a rape kit unless the sheriffs tell him to do so.  And he is the one, according to Colorado law, responsible for the investigation.  Crazy – I know – infuriating and true!

Morgan was a young woman, killed during an active investigation into her felony stalking, and her death was called “suspicious” so she was taken to this pathologist, Dr. Robert Kurtzman, for an autopsy, and he doesn’t even test under her nails, not even where the nails are torn at an angle, doesn’t even do a rape kit, even though her pants are unzipped and unbuttoned, and clearly show no evidence of being on her body when she died, and her lividity became set (lividity shows she was dressed some time after death).

This all adds up to a staged crime scene, where her body was moved postmortem.  They could see from the frozen position of her bent legs and arms that she had not died lying flat down, or on a bed lying on her side – her body had been moved after it had frozen into the position she died in.  Body of proof.  Crime scene 101 – if you see evidence that the body has been moved, then someone else moved it…bodies do not move on their own.

The forensic pathologist, Dr. Robert Kurtzman, engaged in pure speculation – not scientific or medical certainty, as he is tasked to do – no, he botched Morgan’s autopsy, intentionally, or out of laziness, and ego, allowing her to never have an investigation into her suspicious death…but “suspicious” death was the reason her body was brought to him for an autopsy in the first place!

I know some people don’t like to hear that – it’s upsetting and scary.  But no amount of candy-coating, from people that do not want her death to be investigated, can change that fact.  Morgan still needs, and can receive justice for what was done to her.

All the evidence needed for Morgan’s case to become a homicide investigation was right there, the morning of her murder, for the sheriffs to see and collect, but they did not collect it, they did not write what they actually observed in their reports – they did nothing, but attempt to minimize an obvious murder scene. And I do not really believe that all the officers that were there that morning were all on board with this cover-up.  I think they did not want to go along with it, but they were given no choice and it has been eating them up ever since.  See how the ripple effect comes into play and there becomes so many lives altered from just one heinous act.   

The forensic pathologist, Dr. Robert Kurtzman, got nothing right…unless typing that Morgan was a 20-year-old female.  REMEMBER HE COULDN’T EVEN GET HER EYE COLOR CORRECT ON HIS REPORT!!!  


This is a true American horror story, and it needs to end now.  Morgan needs her case investigated, she needs justice and I feel for the other families who have lost loved ones in Montana, where Dr. Kurtzman is now performing autopsies.

– Morgan needs justice because justice is a RIGHT –

Once Upon A December…I Remember Morgan, I Remember

Can’t stop and don’t want to stop remembering all the beautiful memories of you Morgan – between crying, because I wish you were here on your birthday, and smiling as I remember all that you were, and still are…this song, “Once Upon A December,” I remember was the first big piece you learned to play on the piano, while singing the lyrics.

I know you loved this song from Anastasia.  I remember when the Disney movie came out, and I brought you to see it…I remember all the places we went, and all the things we did together – you are so missed.  I am extremely grateful to have been your mom.  I love you so much, and I miss you more than words can describe.

I remember how determined you always were to learn new things…the piano and singing, are just two out of thousands that just came to mind.  What I wouldn’t give to walk in the living room, hearing you play your keyboard and sing once again.

I hope you are dancing and singing in the sky today – I can almost see you.

Happy Birthday my sweet angel.  Love – Mom

Today is Morgan’s 26th Birthday

Holidays and certain dates are very hard for me now – they really hurt.

I started this post last night – trying to keep typing through my tears and pain.  Today is Morgan’s birthday – it is one of those days when we smile at the wonderful memories of our time together with Morgan, and at the same time we cry, because she is no longer with us.  How can we celebrate Morgan’s birthday when it hurts so much?  I ask myself that every year, and every year I am reminded of all the reasons I should celebrate her birthday…all of those reasons are Morgan – she still deserves to be celebrated.

Today we will celebrate her beautiful, gentle, and loving soul – her love lives on in all of us, and we feel it every day.  We were all blessed to have been chosen to be Morgan’s family.  The joy she brought to our lives is immeasurable.

Later today we will have a little birthday party for Morgan.  We will let a few balloons fly into the heavens.   I will cook one of her favorite dinners, then we will light candles on her favorite cake – Tiramisu.  Sprinkle some pomegranates on top (she loved pomegranates), sing happy birthday, take a picture, and share our memory of her 26th birthday with the world.

Please feel free to join in if you’d like, and thank you for keeping Morgan and our family in your thoughts and prayers.

Santa Monica Pier – photo by Morgan Ingram, June 2011