A Gift From Another Grieving Mom…

This may not look so special to you, but to me it is priceless…

Another Mom from Colorado who lost her daughter to a sick, depraved animal, painted this rock for me.  It is a copy of a picture of the silhouette of Morgan. She knew when I held it in the palm of my hand I would feel the immense energy in that rock…and I did!  It is very comforting to me and I will always love her for this priceless gift.

Her daughter is 19-year-old Lea Porter – see the picture below. A beautiful young, amazing soul who should still be with us today, just like Morgan, but like Morgan, her life was cut short by a heinous act from a monster. Lea’s body has still not been found, although her murderer is in jail for her murder. https://www.thedenverchannel.com/news/local-news/killer-sentenced-but-where-is-lea-porters-body

We still need to find Lea and bring her home to her family.

Even through this mom’s pain and suffering, this Mama Bear took the time to support me and give me this rock for comfort. It really seems that all us parents of murdered children are the only ones that can truly understand the depth of pain we will all carry for the rest of our lives, and therefore we are all sadly members of the same club…a club no one ever wants to belong to. I am in awe of the courage all these parents show, while on such a painful journey…and yet what choice did any of us have? None.

This beautiful picture of Lea that you see below I keep on the nightstand next to my bed, along with Morgan’s picture. In my heart I feel like they are both girls are together as friends on the other side…and we will all be reunited again some day. XOXO #JusticeForOurGirls

 

Remembering a time long ago…

Above is a photo of Morgan and her cousin Adam…2 angels no longer with us. Seeing this picture brought tears to my eyes…how can 2 such precious souls have died before their stories were complete. Both lives cut short, but never forgotten.

#JusticeForMorgan!

On December 2, 2018 Remembering Morgan…none of us will ever forget her

Thank every one of you for burning a candle on Sunday in Morgan’s memory and praying for justice

One of Morgan’s cousins wrote:
The first thing that comes to my mind when I think about my cousin Morgan is that she had the Biggest heart. She was always was there for me and she could make you smile just by being next to her. She was an Angel. Of course like all teenages she had spunk, but her spunk was beautiful. She was outgoing, caring, and a great listener. She was creative and everything she did perfectly. It was like she did a beautiful dance with everything she did. I do have to say before I continue this, it’s really weird to talk about her and use ‘would like’ was instead of ‘is’. I just cant get over the sadness I feel when I think of her and what happened, but then I see her face in my head and just by picturing her face, and knowing what kind of person she was, I feel better because she would be the first one to say, “Its ok and everything will get better there’s no need to cry and she would give this smile and and at that time you knew she was right.” 
I have known Morgan since the day she was born. She was more like a sister to me. I know when it comes to friends and memories, the two just go together like coffee and mornings. Hahaha. I have so many memories with her because I use to live with them (my Aunt Toni & Uncle Steve), I can remember the dinner table talks, and when we use to babysit Morgan when she was little, but I think my favorite memory was the most recent and last one when we all went to Disneyland (this was just before they left to go back to Colorado and then the stalking started). It was at the hotel, we (Morgan & I) went downstairs while everyone was in the room and we just caught up on what was going on in our lives. It was a great talk about her friends and her dancing and I talked about what I’ve been up. We talked about how we don’t see each other enough and how I should just move back out there. I asked about the silly ferrets she had, and if she had gotten anymore pets. We talked about how cool it is that my daughter and her are Leos and that if I ever moved out there she would be my number 1 babysitter, and she was so happy because she just adored my daughter Christina. Oh, there’s one more memory I remember, I went out there (to Colorado) when I was pregnant and Toni and Steve were gone one afternoon, and they had this fish in their room. Something happened and the darn fish fell out of the bowl and was flopping around. We (Morgan and I) were screaming like little girls. It was really funny. I guess you had to be there. 
The day my Aunt Toni called me to say “Morgan’s dead” – All I kept saying to Aunt Toni was NO, NO, NO I think that’s all I said the whole conversation. I couldn’t even talk. I dropped to my knees and started to cry. It felt like a dream. A really bad dream. After that there were just questions going through my head like how could this happen to someone like her. Why would God take someone like Morgan away from us. I felt like it didn’t make any sense and I was very confused.
People need to know when Morgan died we lost an Angel. We lost a soul that was the most caring and giving person in the world. I can only hope that my daughter grows up with the moral and respect and love that Morgan had. She put a extra pep in every step she walked on this earth and everywhere she went she touched people’s lives.  Morgan loved life and everyone around her.
Her murder has affected me tremendously and the reason is that we have no closure. I wish we could just find out who did this to her and give them the punishment they deserve and lock them up so they won’t hurt anyone else. I am sad all the time because of what they have taken from our family.
#JusticeForMorgan!

November 30, 2018 – what happened today 7 years ago?

7 years ago today here is what I wrote about that day on my timeline: http://morganingram.com/wordpress/?p=2446

As well as:http://morganingram.com/wordpress/?p=4169&fbclid=IwAR3511fnBFYAt2WVUE05paTJLtW35tlV4m0c8t2S6aFWdBCKAVdxYFwj4

Morgan was scared and wanted protection. She asked her dad if he would buy her a knife. This is a picture Morgan took of the box (with a knife inside of it) that Steve bought for her, at her request, on the drive home from Grand Junction, CO. This box, with the knife still inside of it, was found in her bed, next to her body when we found her on Friday morning, December 2, 2011.

My heart is breaking today – I just want to crawl into a hole and cry all by myself…and at the same time my whole body is vibrating with excitement…why? I feel like a voice from somewhere is telling me it is finally time…it has been almost 7 years now, but justice is coming very soon. This sounds strange after all these years, but I really do trust that voice – it has never been wrong before so please cross your fingers, pray and light a candle on Sunday for Morgan…#JusticeForMorgan!

Morgan loved listening to Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes, especially their song: “Home is whenever I’m with you”

Lyrics
Alabama, Arkansas
I do love my ma and pa
Not that way that I do love you
Holy moley, me oh my
You’re the apple of my eye
Girl, I’ve never loved one like you
Man, oh man, you’re my best friend
I scream it to the nothingness
There ain’t nothing that I need
Well, hot and heavy, pumpkin pie
Chocolate candy, Jesus Christ
Ain’t nothing please me more than you
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is wherever I’m with you
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is wherever I’m with you
La, la, la, la, take me home
Mommy, I’m coming home
I’ll follow you into the park
Through the jungle, through the dark
Girl, I never loved one like you
Moats and boats and waterfalls
Alleyways and pay phone calls
I’ve been everywhere with you
That’s true, laugh until we think we’ll die
Barefoot on a summer night
Never could be sweeter than with you
And in the streets you run a-free
Like it’s only you and me
Geez, you’re something to see
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is wherever I’m with you
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is wherever I’m with you
La, la, la, la, take me home
Daddy, I’m coming home
Jade Alexander, do you remember that day you fell out of my window?
I sure do, you came jumping out after me
Well, you fell on the concrete, nearly broke your ass,
You were bleeding all over the place and I rushed you out to the hospital, you remember that?
Yes, I do, well, there’s something I never told you about that night
What didn’t you tell me?
While you were sitting in the backseat smoking a cigarette you thought was going to be your last,
I was falling deep, deeply in love with you, and I never told you until just now
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is wherever I’m with you
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is where I’m alone with you
Home, let me come home
Home is wherever I’m with you
Ah, home, yes I am home
Home is when I’m alone with you
Alabama, Arkansas
I do love my ma and pa
Moats and boats and waterfalls
Alleyways and pay phone calls
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is wherever I’m with you
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is where I’m alone with you
Songwriters: Alexander Ebert / Jade Allyson Castrinos
Home lyrics © BMG Rights Management