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Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it – Confucius

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It just takes a moment of your time to see all the beauty around you .  Sometimes all you need to see is a a little feather on the ground, right when you glance down at your feet.  This beautiful sign can appear just when you need it most, as a sign from your loved one that they are still with you.  A simple thing, a small thing- – but a beautiful thing.  This has happened to me so many times in the past 4 + years since Morgan has been gone.  A small white feather, all by itself, on the deck after a rain storm.  A small white feather floating down from the ceiling in the bathroom after I look up from crying my eyes out.  Only one small white feather on the sand at the beach, as I stand looking at the immense ocean.

I have learned to watch for signs from Morgan, and to continue to look for the beauty in this world.  And I am never disappointed. <3  Much love to you all.  angelpg-tab-guidelovejpg

September 23, 2011 – Day 53 of Morgan’s Stalking

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Dream a little dream

This is now like you would feel after a period of really high tension, and things calm down, and you go way down.  I am so stressed out now I feel like I need a mental health day off from work.  But I plow on, instead of taking off from work I lean on Morgan to spend some time with me in the early evening.  All our time together for so long has been all about the stalker, and now that the video system has seemed to have done the trick, I want to get back to the way it was – I want to do something fun together.

Morgan is going to take her niece out to the store which just excites little Joni to no end.  At 11:14 am I finish the phone end of the arrangements, and text to Morgan, “Ok just call Leesa on her cell when you get there and she’ll bring Joni to the car for you or you can get out and knock on the door – Joni is really excited!”  They have a great time together, and I’m uneasy that the installation of a video system has completely restored order back into our lives, but it certainly seems to have.

After Morgan has fun with Joni and drops her back at her house, it’s my turn with Morgan, and we have a great time talking about all the stuff we used to on quiet days.  We crash out on the couch with her little puppy Wylah sleeping on the floor right under Morgan.  Morgan’s sister is cleaning house, and found a gift from Morgan from a long time ago.  A little clay imprint of Morgan’s hand, glazed and fired, a permanent memento of her little sister.  She texts Morgan, “Look what I found… Little Morgan hand imprint… I put it next to mine for comparison… ;)” There was a picture of the two together, and Morgan’s fingers might have been a little longer, sure sign of a piano player!

That night Morgan goes to the Penny Hot Springs with her friends.  While she is gone, at around 11:00 pm, the motion lights on the back of the house go on.  But it is coupled with nothing else so we record it, but ignore it.  A while later the motion detector driveway alarm also sounds, but same thing, unless Rhonda’s dog joins in, or one of the video cameras sounds, and alarm us we will record it and ignore it.  I wrote a happy face in my day-runner today.  For a while we think all has returned to normal.  Steve reviews the cameras when he gets home, and is happy that every warning of a possible event is nothing on the cameras.

We talk about going somewhere, and doing something.  It is a completely different atmosphere in the house now.  As it all ratcheted up one click at a time, it was hard to really see the full effect.  Now that it had all been released it was really easy to see the difference.  And what a difference it was. . .

(Police reports later show the “suspect” was not working this evening.  On 9.23.2011 he worked from 8:31 am – 12:39 pm & then from 1:10 pm – 3:26 pm)