Morgan Is A Very Bright Light…

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Morgan with Tessi as a puppy – granted she was a big puppy, but she was very young at the time this picture was taken.  Morgan loved children and animals – they always made her smile.

Morgan was a gentle and sweet soul, existing as one with the earth.  Loved by all, and who’s bright light attracted everyone, and everything – including both light and darkness, people that were good, and people that were evil.

I really miss listening to her play her keyboard and sing.  One of the song that she used to sing almost every day was Hallelujah.  You may think it is just a coincidence, or a sign, or a whisper from an angel, but whatever you may believe in my heart every time I walk into a room and this song is playing or just goes on I “feel” like Morgan is reminding me that she is right there with me.  I “feel” a warm surge go through my back and all the sadness and longing I have to see her again becomes less because I “feel” like she is right there with me.  So on that note I would like to share with you the song below.

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMNRXQuvl64

The most beautiful word: Hallelujah.

The most beautiful song, originally written and sung by none other than Buddhist, and Ladies’ Man, Leonard Cohen.  This song has different meanings to a lot of people but it is a beautiful song and one that makes me feel happy inside.

“And even though it all went wrong, I’ll stand right here before the Lord of song, with nothing on my tongue but ‘Hallelujah’.”

It’s, as I say, a desire to affirm my faith in life, not in some formal religious way but with enthusiasm, with emotion…It’s a rather joyous song. I wanted to write something in the tradition of the hallelujah choruses but from a different point of view…It’s the notion that there is no perfection—that this is a broken world and we live with broken hearts and broken lives but still that is no alibi for anything.

On the contrary, you have to stand up and say hallelujah under those circumstances.

~ Leonard Cohen

And most famously, by Rufus Wainwright, a version that made it into Shrek, the blockbuster children’s fave movie.

I heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don’t really care for music, do ya?
Well it goes like this, the fourth, the fifth
The minor fall and the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Well your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew ya
She tied you to her kitchen chair
And she broke your throne and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Maybe there’s a God above
But all I’ve ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who out drew ya
It’s not a cry that you hear at night
It’s not someone whos seen the light
It’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

2 years ago a college student writes to raise awareness

AspentreesfallToday I was organizing my notes and I came across the following submission. I received it 2 years ago on September 9, 2012.  It was from a college student that had read the blog and wanted to submit a paper about Morgan’s stalking and blog to her Speech Communications class, but wanted to run it by me first.

I was very touched back when I first read it, and this time around I was just as touched…my heart swelled with happiness when I thought of all the young people over the last few years that have contacted me to let me know how they feel about what happened to Morgan.  These submissions have made me believe that awareness has been raised, and will continue to be raised by all those that have come in contact with this case.  To date this website has now had over 5 million visitors from over 115 countries.

Morgan will receive justice one of these days, and my hope is when that justice comes, and light overcomes the darkness, the illumination from Morgan’s story will have a far-reaching effect on this world.

To this young writer I say thank you again for sharing Morgan’s story!

Morgan Ingram

You’ve probably never heard of the name above.  I recently just came to know of the 20 year old woman, Morgan Ingram from Colorado.  I don’t know Morgan or her family personally, but I’ve just started reading about her.  I know of her dog named Wylah, I know she always had a camera in her hand, I know she was an amazing painter, I know she loved hanging out with her friends, I know she had a wonderful relationship with her family, I know she was enrolled in classes at a Colorado college. I also know she was stalked and terrorized for four months, and I also know she is no longer with us on this Earth.

Morgan’s stalking and terrorizing started on August 2, 2011.  At first, just hearing noises. Noises that sounded like a tree branch rubbing against a window, a bird flying into a window, or even just the sounds of a house settling at the end of the night.  However, for the Ingram family, this was simply not the case.  From August 2, 2011 until December 2, 2011 Morgan was a victim of stalking.  It started out slow and then slowly began to escalate.  From throwing pebbles at the window to banging on their frosted bathroom window when she was showering.  Morgan started sleeping in her parents walk-in closet in the master bedroom.  When she wasn’t at home, she was with friends.  Because of this stalker, Morgans life, her families life, and everyone else around her life was affected.

Yes, I know what you’re thinking.  ”Didn’t the Ingram’s call the police?”  Of course they did.  Many times.  Unfortunately, it took many months for this case to move from only a misdemeanor trespassing case to a felony stalking case.  There was plenty of evidence that proved they in fact had a stalker targeting Morgan; footprints outside of her window, someone trying to enter their home by pushing the buttons to their keyless entry door and even a distinct trail visible on Google maps of a trail from the woods into their backyard.  The signs were all there, unfortunately, due to their interpretation of Colorado law, the police would only treat this as a trespassing case as mentioned above.

On December 2, 2011, Morgan Ingram left this world.  She was found by her parents in her room unresponsive.  The official cause of death was ruled “natural causes” (of a 20 year old, really?!) and then 9 months later was changed to “suicide.”  Now, as stated before, I don’t know Morgan or her family, but I do know, just by the accounts her mom, Toni, has told the world in her blog, that Morgan would not commit suicide.  She loved life and everything good life had to offer.  Yes, she was stalked and terrorized almost every day for four months, but this girl was strong.  Stronger than anything life could hand her, and in my heart I believe, as do many others ( Morgan’s Blog averages 250,000 views a week) that she was in fact killed, and did not take her own life.

Morgan’s mom, Toni, and dad Steve, have started a blog.  A blog dedicated to finding justice for Morgan and raising awareness about stalking.  Everyday during the four months Morgan was terrorized, Toni kept a journal.   Toni detailed every incident that happened, every text message sent, every photo taken, and every phone call made.  They now type those journal entries into their blog on the day they happened exactly one year ago.   They are showing the world what they went through, what Morgan went through and what millions of others are going through.  They are raising awareness of the murder of her daughter, and more importantly, using every resource they can, to find the person responsible for Morgan’s death and bring that person to justice.

Please visit Morgan’s blog.  The more people aware of what happened to Morgan, the closer the Ingram’s are to bringing her killer to justice.  http://morganingram.com/wordpress/

The Ingram’s also have a Facebook page that you can visit and are encouraged to “like.” https://www.facebook.com/morgansstalking

Should victims of stalking in Colorado be in fear for their lives?

I will continue to post on this blog about things Morgan like to cook, things she loved to do, and activities that she enjoyed…all in an effort to continue to keep her alive in the minds and hearts of everyone she touched before a stalker took everything from Morgan.  I will not allow her memory to be stolen from us like her physical body was.

The last days of Morgan's bedroom windows with the blinds open...she loved light but didn't want someone peeking in at her.

The last days of Morgan’s bedroom windows with the blinds open…she loved light but didn’t want someone peeking in at her.

That being said, on this blog I would like to say something again about her stalking/murder, and subsequent misrepresentation of the facts of her case by not only law enforcement, but people out on the Internet, people that have no idea about the truth in this case.  What I would like them all to know is:

If the truth doesn’t come out in Morgan’s case then a predatory stalker/murderer (who in my opinion is a sexual sadist) will still be out there on the loose, and will most likely do this again.  We have pictures of the suspect at our house, Morgan identified him many times during the stalking, and the sheriffs knew exactly who the suspect was, and no the suspect was never “cleared”, in fact the following week after Morgan’s murder the “suspect’s” work hours were being collected to be compared to my timeline of the stalking events, Morgan was going to be giving her “official on tape” interview, and the felony stalking detective assured me that he was getting close to making an arrest.  Morgan was frightened, stressed, and exhausted from the stalking, and ultimately lost her life due to her stalker. I know the state of Colorado does not want this to happen to it’s citizens, but if they can not stop a law enforcement agency from lying about, and destroying evidence in a case so there can never be a case, then how can there ever be justice?  What does this say to other victims of stalking in Colorado – that they should be in fear for their lives?  Because so many who have reached out to me for help tell exactly that story – they fear for their lives.  A Garfield County Sheriffs Detective said, “There is no more Morgan, there is no more stalker,”, on the day she died.  Isn’t this sending a message to stalkers that if they kill their victim they won’t get arrested?  In the past Steve and I trusted law enforcement, but now we are far more skeptical.  And as for Garfield County, I have seen them at their worst, and it is not a pretty picture.  Many others have shared their personal experiences as well, and believe me it is not anything any “law abiding” department would be proud of.  And we truly hope when we are finally done with achieving the justice our daughter Morgan deserves, that all those involved in covering up this case will be held accountable.

 

Morgan’s recipe for Noodles with a Walnut Pesto Sauce

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Noodles with Walnut Pesto Sauce
1 cup parsley, chopped and packed into a cup
1 Tbsp. dried oregano leaves
1 tsp. salt
1/8 tsp. white pepper
2 cloves garlic, crushed
1/2 cup olive oil
2 Tbsp. butter
2 Tbsp. water, boiling
3/4 cup Parmesan cheese, grated
1/4 cup walnuts, finely chopped or whole pine nuts
8 oz. thin spaghetti, angel hair pasta, or noodles cooked according to package directions
In a small bowl, combine all ingredients except spaghetti.  Beat with a fork to combine thoroughly.  Place well-drained hot spaghetti in a large bowl.  Pour sauce over spaghetti and toss lightly to coat.  Serve with additional Parmesan cheese if desired.  Makes 4 servings.
Note: Pesto will keep in the refrigerator for several days. Cover with a thin layer of olive oil and store in a covered jar.  Let it warm to room temperature before using.  It may also be frozen.
***This is also a great dinner option to take with you camping or packing on horseback into the backcountry – take the prepared pesto with you in a sealed container, cook the spaghetti on your camp stove, drain and add the pesto…it makes an easy and great meal while roughing it.

 

Morgan’s Lithuanian Potato Kugel Recipe

Potato Kugel
4 medium potatoes (about 2 lbs.)
1 large yellow onion
2 eggs
1 tsp. salt
pepper to taste
3 Tbsp. vegetable oil or 3 pieces chopped bacon
Garnish with sour cream
A kugel is a pudding-like dish, best eaten hot or warm.  Peel the potatoes and grate them as quickly as possible.  Peel and grate the onion.  Beat the eggs lightly.  Stir together the potatoes, onion, eggs, salt and pepper.
Preheat the oven to 350 degrees, pour the oil, into a shallow, medium sized casserole, add the potato mixture and bake it for 1 hour.  If using chopped bacon instead of oil on the bottom of the casserole, put the bacon into the casserole and bake 15 minutes before adding that potato mixture, then bake for 1 additional hour.  The kugel should be puffed up and browned.  Serve hot with sour cream.  Serves 6 – 8.

Morgan loved this recipe – it is one of the Lithuanian recipes that she enjoyed just as much as she enjoyed learning to speak Lithuanian.  Morgan’s father Steve is 1/2 Lithuanian and Morgan was practicing her Lithuanian in order to travel there someday – it was on her bucket list.  Whenever I called her on her phone she had it set to show up on the screen that  “motina” was calling.  Motina is Lithuanian for mother.

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Tonight I feel Morgan very close – the full moon, one of the super moons, maybe with it’s gravitational pull…I don’t know if that is it, all I know is that she is very, very close.  And I know how much I miss her laughter, her smile, her flat hand against the middle of my back, gently placed there whenever I was upset.  Her hand seemed to put an invisible warm sense of calm throughout my body.  That same warm “blast” of energy I can still feel when I break down and cry…wondering why did this sweet, kind daughter has been taken from this world.  I know Morgan is sending her love, she wants me to stay strong, and she wants me to continue to raise awareness, and push for justice and truth, not only for her, but for all others that have not been able to find justice.  I won’t let her down.

I enjoy sharing these recipes to keep the happy memories of Morgan alive – I hope you will enjoy them as well.  Love and hugs to all.