Once Upon A December…I Remember Morgan, I Remember

Can’t stop and don’t want to stop remembering all the beautiful memories of you Morgan – between crying, because I wish you were here on your birthday, and smiling as I remember all that you were, and still are…this song, “Once Upon A December,” I remember was the first big piece you learned to play on the piano, while singing the lyrics.

I know you loved this song from Anastasia.  I remember when the Disney movie came out, and I brought you to see it…I remember all the places we went, and all the things we did together – you are so missed.  I am extremely grateful to have been your mom.  I love you so much, and I miss you more than words can describe.

I remember how determined you always were to learn new things…the piano and singing, are just two out of thousands that just came to mind.  What I wouldn’t give to walk in the living room, hearing you play your keyboard and sing once again.

I hope you are dancing and singing in the sky today – I can almost see you.

Happy Birthday my sweet angel.  Love – Mom

Today is Morgan’s 26th Birthday

Holidays and certain dates are very hard for me now – they really hurt.

I started this post last night – trying to keep typing through my tears and pain.  Today is Morgan’s birthday – it is one of those days when we smile at the wonderful memories of our time together with Morgan, and at the same time we cry, because she is no longer with us.  How can we celebrate Morgan’s birthday when it hurts so much?  I ask myself that every year, and every year I am reminded of all the reasons I should celebrate her birthday…all of those reasons are Morgan – she still deserves to be celebrated.

Today we will celebrate her beautiful, gentle, and loving soul – her love lives on in all of us, and we feel it every day.  We were all blessed to have been chosen to be Morgan’s family.  The joy she brought to our lives is immeasurable.

Later today we will have a little birthday party for Morgan.  We will let a few balloons fly into the heavens.   I will cook one of her favorite dinners, then we will light candles on her favorite cake – Tiramisu.  Sprinkle some pomegranates on top (she loved pomegranates), sing happy birthday, take a picture, and share our memory of her 26th birthday with the world.

Please feel free to join in if you’d like, and thank you for keeping Morgan and our family in your thoughts and prayers.

Santa Monica Pier – photo by Morgan Ingram, June 2011

 

About Morgan’s Stalking

http://morganingram.com is the link to this website – it is where this blog resides…please click on the link, and then read all the pages – they tell about what happened to Morgan, as well as who Morgan was.

Thank you so much for helping to raise awareness about the dangers of stalkers, and to share the truth about what really happened to our youngest daughter.  Morgan was stalked & her death was a homicide.  She was 19 years old when the stalking started and was 20 when she was murdered…only 4 months after we realized she was being stalked.

Please share with anyone you know.  This blog and website have been read in over 115 countries around the world, by over 7 Million people to date…please keep it going.

So many people have been helped, over the past 5 years, because of the information in this website, and blog.  It explains about what happened to Morgan, what we did right, as well as all the mistakes we made.  We have heard back from many other victims of stalking, veterinarians that have now changed their protocol on dispensing the equine drug Amitriptyline, the head of a stalking task force out of Canada to let us know they are now adding onto their protocol to check the roofs of residences of stalking victims when called about an incident of stalking, as well as many other officers in law enforcement, first responders, forensic experts, and parents that are now taking more precautions, and the list goes on and on.  So I know this website and blog have helped many people, as well as raising awareness on this extremely UNDER REPORTED crime of stalking.

You can also hear the investigative journalism series, that had been done by a local radio station, long before we were able to get the many answers we now have, with the help of others experts and by doing our own investigation.  Here is the link to that series – https://soundcloud.com/user-744545581/kdnk-series  Parents shouldn’t have to do their own investigation into the murder of their child because law enforcement and the coroner’s office have chosen not to investigate – but unfortunately, we are not the only families that have been left to do it all on our own.

Morgan’s birthday is tomorrow, August 16, and she would have been 26 years old…the pain in our hearts is still just as deep and indescribable as it was December 2, 2011, when we found her body.  Our fight for justice continues, and we know the pain will never go away, as a piece of our hearts will now always be missing.  The stalker/murderer took Morgan’s physical body away, but could never take away all the love that we have, and always will have for her.  We honor her memory every single day by being of service to other victims.  This gives Morgan a little justice every single day going forward, and I know it makes her soul happy.

Thank you so much for reading and listening about Morgan.  She will never be forgotten and we will never give up in the fight for #Justice4Morgan

 

 

Accusing Innocent People?

Am I accusing innocent people?  I was there, through the stalking and murder, I lived it – I kept a timeline from the beginning, not knowing that it would be critical as the days unfolded.  I wrote down the “facts” about the incidents of stalking…in the beginning, not even knowing who was involved.

After our first photo capture of the stalker, Morgan realized who was probably involved – later on, after being followed, and seeing who the stalker(s) were, Morgan finally knew who it was, and told the sheriffs. Keenan VanGinkle was named as the main “suspect” in Morgan’s case and Brooke Harris was also mentioned, but her name was redacted because she was under 18 at the time – this can be seen on the police reports.

Steve & I were also victims of the same stalking – we are listed as victims in the police reports.  I am a victim – speaking my truth.  I am not accusing innocent people – I know who was doing the stalking, and I know Morgan was murdered…this is what I have stated.  I have also stated that given Morgan was murdered during an active investigation into her felony stalking, and given that only 2 days before she was murdered, the detective told me he expected the stalking to escalate, and was assigning additional patrols on our house – yes, I believe I know who murdered my daughter.  And yes, I believe her case needs to be investigated, if Morgan is ever to receive justice.  If that is all it takes to be an “accuser,” then when families know who the “suspect” is, they should never speak out or they will be considered an “accuser?” This is ridiculous – that is EXACTLY what criminals would like…everyone to stay quiet.  That is how evil wins.

I was there the whole time during this horrific, life-changing, soul-numbing 4 month period of time – Morgan, Steve & I were the only ones that lived through the stalking and her murder.  I lived it – Steve & I experienced the stalking, along with Morgan – no one else, except of course those involved in her stalking & murder…so I know for a fact this was a gang stalking, involving more than one person, as well as a predatory stalker.  I know who was involved and what their roles were in the stalking and murder.

Are you aware that Morgan saw Keenan VanGinkle face-to-face as he was engaged in stalking her?  It was at least 5 times that I am positive of – if you knew that fact would that fact change your mind? Or would you feel safer believing someone that wasn’t there, and never knew what really happened?

If people truly followed where the evidence (facts) of this case lead – they would follow it through to the truth, but too many people have a stake in the false reporting, as well as keeping Morgan’s case from ever being investigated.

I am not judge and jury – I want her case investigated, so someday there will be a judge and jury to decide who is guilty of murdering my daughter Morgan, as well as who the accessory’s were  the others who assisted in the stalking, false alibis, and murder.  I then want to see all those involved charged and sentenced.

Is that too much for a mother to want?

 

 

Morgan LOVED to Read, Research & Learn

Those who really knew Morgan knew that she loved to read, do her own research, and learn…she never stopped learning.  Steve found these 3 cards the other day, while looking through a box we had packed up after her murder…we both sobbed.  The pain of losing Morgan is still indescribable.

Morgan was such a kind, loving young woman – and so much more.  She had a passion for learning.  My throat constricts, and my heart feels like it is being crushed, when I think of not only what we lost, when Morgan’s life was cut short, but also what the world lost. How could a person or persons be so soulless, so lacking in human feelings, as to want to end another’s life?  I don’t think I will ever be able to understand it.  I know murderers live among us.  I know they look like ordinary people like us – but they are so very different…they lack feeling, they lack human compassion, and they still walk our streets.

In Morgan’s short 20 years she had helped so many, and brought happiness to many more…I know she would have continued to do so throughout her life…but that life was taken from her.  Morgan was murdered during an active investigation into her felony stalking.  I know some people don’t like to hear that – it’s upsetting and scary.  But no amount of candy-coating, from people that do not want her death to be investigated, can change that fact.  Morgan still needs and can receive justice for what was done to her.

If I had been the one killed, instead of Morgan, I guarantee you Morgan would have done all the research a lot faster, and a lot more thoroughly than I have.  She would have become a great women’s rights lawyer, fighting for justice, like she had planned.  All those dreams are now gone, but her fight for justice continues…through all of us.

I will also never ever understand how a victim of stalking, a stalking where the victim identified her stalker, and law enforcement knew who the suspect was (they have his name in the police reports listed as SUSPECT), a victim who is found dead, and her death deemed to be “suspicious” on the very morning her body is found – then no evidence is collected, no fingerprints taken, no rape kit done, suspicious “spots” on her chest are not tested – instead, that very morning, the detective tells us her death is a “mystery” until the forensic pathologist tells them what the cause and manner of death is.  THEN…the pathologist comes back with a determination of “Natural Causes,” so law enforcement says there is no need for an investigation…convenient for them – right?

And just so you know, Colorado law, at that time, clearly states that the contracted forensic pathologist, Dr. Robert Kurtzman, was completely responsible for the investigation – but he was never at the crime scene – he disregarded what her parents, Morgan’s doctors, and the physical and the scientific evidence and medical certainty, which is what he is supposed to listen to…instead he made his own decision, irresponsible based on pure speculation and then listed the false information all on his own.

In a different case out of Colorado, a case where Dr. Kurtzman (same forensic pathologist that did Morgan’s autopsy) ruled two little boys’ deaths as accidental, the case of the Jensen brothers, the Colorado Supreme Court would not allow Dr. Kurtzman’s PER, or his opinion to be heard by the jurors stating that, “It would only confuse the jurors.”  A doctor is supposed to state scientific certainty, not make up what he wants it to be, or is being told to say…facts are facts, the truth is the truth and sure, people in positions of trust, like a forensic pathologist, are given the benefit of the doubt because we are supposed to trust them, but some are not what they seem, and do not do the right thing.

THEN…8 months later, after the forensic pathologist, going against all the physical and scientific evidence that Morgan died at the hands of another, changed her Manner of Death to a “Suicide,” with absolutely no evidence.  This is such nonsense and yet it gets scarier every time I speak with an expert involved in these type of determinations.  The very educated top forensic toxicologists that run the toxicology tests and produce the documentation are frustrated as well…they say that some of these forensic pathologists misread the results and go off what they believe and NOT the scientific findings!  This is ludicrous – and yet it happens, and yes, it happened in Morgan’s case. The coroner would NEVER speak with us about Morgan’s death – not once.  The forensic pathologist, Dr. Robert Kurtzman (now working for the Medical Examiner in Montana) threatened me that he could change her manner of death if I didn’t stop having Morgan’s doctors and other experts contact him…and 8 months later he made good on his promise.

How can Garfield County get away with this?  I have asked myself that many, many times now.  So far they have gotten away with it.  But I don’t plan on it staying like that forever – the truth will come out.  Our family is not about to give up.  Morgan is worth all of our efforts to right this wrong, as are all the other victims of stalking that need our help.  #JusticeForMorgan