Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it – Confucius

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It just takes a moment of your time to see all the beauty around you .  Sometimes all you need to see is a a little feather on the ground, right when you glance down at your feet.  This beautiful sign can appear just when you need it most, as a sign from your loved one that they are still with you.  A simple thing, a small thing- – but a beautiful thing.  This has happened to me so many times in the past 4 + years since Morgan has been gone.  A small white feather, all by itself, on the deck after a rain storm.  A small white feather floating down from the ceiling in the bathroom after I look up from crying my eyes out.  Only one small white feather on the sand at the beach, as I stand looking at the immense ocean.

I have learned to watch for signs from Morgan, and to continue to look for the beauty in this world.  And I am never disappointed. <3  Much love to you all.  angelpg-tab-guidelovejpg

Do you have a Missing Person or Murdered Loved One? Please Read…

It is already fall and October 1st is rapidly approaching – I would like to let everyone know that the FOHVAMP (Families of Homicide and Missing Persons) Annual Meeting is being held in Colorado on that date.  If you, or anyone you know of, has had a loved one whose case has not yet been solved please read the invitation to this meeting, as attendance is available to anyone, whether or not your case is in Colorado.  This would be a good venue for you to attend – it could prove to be invaluable to your case.

The main feature this year will be a Cold Case Study in which co victims will learn more about the complicated nature of how our system of justice works, and possibly glean ideas on how to better manage their own unresolved homicide or missing person cases.

It is such a HUGE undertaking to attempt to make our system better, but I believe education and awareness for both the families, as well as law enforcement, will accomplish a lot when it comes to solving these type of cases.  If there is no justice there can be no peace.  Families need answers.  Families need to know that everything that can possibly be done is being done, and that their loved one is not forgotten.

Personally, Steve & I have learned so much since the morning we found our youngest daughter Morgan dead.  In our case, when it happened I went into a kind of shock.  I started telling myself I was just dreaming, and that I will wake up any moment and she will still be alive.  Then I started to beg for a reset button so that I could be transported to the day before she was gone forever.  I wanted so desperately to hit that reset button and see her smiling face again, so I could take her far, far away, where evil couldn’t find her.  You beg, you plead, and eventually you slip into what I call “survival mode.”

For me survival mode occurred when I realized it wasn’t a nightmare – it was really happening, our youngest daughter was dead. I knew there was no reset button, and I could never bring Morgan back. I understood that the searing pain I had in my heart was never going to go away – how could it?  A piece of my heart had been cut out and was now missing forever. I had to evolve into some new version of myself – someone that could still move forward.  While my mind was telling me there was no way I could ever go on with my life, my heart kept urging me to hang on.  Oh, how hard moving forward is when you have lost a piece of your heart forever.  I chose to move forward, as painful as that was.  I felt it was the right choice.  I had always taught Morgan, as well as our other two children, that giving up was not an option, so how could I just give up?  No, that was not an option for me either.  It took years for me to grow out of survival mode, to actually understanding my new life, and path that I am now following.  I guess you could call this an act of surrendering to this new path instead of allowing my pain to become all consuming.  I knew in my heart (not my mind) that there were things I could do, that we can all do, to make changes, big changes, so other families in the future won’t have to suffer as we have.  FOHVAMP has always tried to facilitate these type of changes.  They want to help these families, and that is why I support FOHVAMP.

The FOHVAMP Annual Meeting is a wonderful opportunity for law enforcement to hear how the families feel, and learn how the families can actually help the case.  It is also a good time for the families to hear about some of the challenges law enforcement has and together maybe they can both find ways to “pool” their information and solve the cases much faster.

For detectives, looking to earn P.O.S.T. certification credits, you can register as well for a $40 class fee.  In my capacity as the California Representative for OCCA (Organization of Cold Case Advocates) I would like you to know that all the co victims I have worked with over the years want the same thing…ANSWERS.  The more all of us learn how to find those answers, the faster we can solve these cases.            

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ANNOUNCEMENT

 FOHVAMP Annual Meeting

Saturday, October 1, 2016

 9am to 4 pm

Brittany Hill

9350 Grant St
Thornton, CO 80229

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Cold Case Study Co Sponsored By;

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Center for Domestic Violence

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Overview

         This year’s Annual Meeting will be at the beautiful Brittany Hill Conference Center located in Thornton Colorado just off I-25 and Thornton Parkway.  Our main feature this year will be a Cold Case Study in which co victims will learn more about the complicated nature of how our system of justice works, and possibly glean ideas on how to better manage their own unresolved homicide and missing person cases.

            In the course of this Cold Case Homicide Study, we will hear from many of the actual key figures in the investigation such as District Attorney, Crime Lab Experts, Police detectives, victim advocates and co victim. 

            Through the course of this study, it is our sincere hope to bring out lessons learned from all of these individuals as to the need for good communication between Co Victims and law enforcement, between law enforcement agencies, District Attorney’s, Coroners, crime lab experts and others.  Our first presentation was one where law enforcement and authorities involved in these very complicated and difficult investigations learned a great deal and were able to take those lessons learned and apply them to their own individual cases.

            Admission will be $40.00, which includes a fabulous lunch and the conference center fee.

You can pay online ahead of time or you may pay at the door before the start of the meeting.  Follow this link if you prefer to pay online: https://www.paypal.com/us/cgi-bin/webscr?cmd=_flow&SESSION=MYLUGF6HfKc_xBrV-nrmeUCUovIxn2u1QPwV8j2XCL0kXV9W62o3_HwAu3G&dispatch=5885d80a13c0db1f8e263663d3faee8d4fe1dd75ca3bd4f11d72275b28239088 remember to write under “purpose” Annual Meeting & your name, so you will be on the list of paid attendees.

To add even more excitement, Jennifer Shaffer will be one of the speakers at the meeting.  Jennifer will be discussing something that I believe will become the wave of the future in solving some of the hardest cases, BIS (Beneficial Intelligence Syndicate) http://www.jennifershaffer.com/event/jennifer-speaking-at-fohvamp-families-of-homicide-victims-and-missing-persons-in-colorado/ 

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And for all of you that have lost a child, here is a poem that explains a little about the “exclusive club” that none of us parents would have ever wanted to become a member of, and would never, ever wish upon another family.

WHEN I TELL YOU THAT MY HEART STILL HURTS,
YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY.
WHEN I TELL YOU THAT MY EYES STILL CRY,
YOU LOOK THE OTHER WAY.
HOW COULD YOU KNOW THE PAIN I HAVE,
AND THE SORROW THAT I FEEL
FOR YOU HAVEN’T LOST A PRECIOUS CHILD
SO FOR YOU THIS ISN’T REAL.
I CAN’T SAY THAT I BLAME YOU
FOR I ONCE WAS JUST LIKE YOU
I WOULD TURN MY HEAD AND WALK AWAY
NOT KNOWING WHAT TO DO.
BUT NOW I KNOW, OH HOW I KNOW
WHAT ANOTHER MOTHER FEELS,
FOR ONLY WHEN YOU HAVE LOST YOUR CHILD,
OUR SHARED PAIN IS NOW SO REAL.
THIS PAINFUL LOSS THAT BEREAVED MOTHERS SHARE
BRINGS US CLOSER IN OUR HEARTS
NOW WHEN WE MEET AND SHARE OUR CHILD
WE ARE FRIENDS RIGHT FROM THE START.
(Author Unknown)

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Today is National Grandparents’ Day in the U.S.

grandparents_dayNational Grandparents’ Day in the U.S. is always the first Sunday after Labor Day in September, and has been ever since 1978.  I never knew this when I was younger, but now that Steve & I have 2 young grandchildren they have happily 🙂 informed us about this day.

In my opinion grandchildren are some of the most wonderful gifts we could ever receive.  They have brought joy and happiness back into our lives after Morgan was taken from us, even though the pain was so immense.  There will always be a missing part in our hearts, and I know the pain will never disappear, but these 2 precious children soften the pain every time they mention their Aunt Gigi (Morgan). They remind us of all the wonderful things they remember about her.  They giggle and show us their art work, just like Morgan always did.  And their smiles are contagious — just like Morgan’s.

The older of our 2 grandchildren (the 7-year old) reminds me all the time that I should never give up and that we need to “get the bad guys.”  This helps to keep me going in my quest for justice for Morgan.  I am, and always will be, so very grateful for our grandchildren – – Steve and I have been blessed.

 

 

 

National Dog Day is Today…

Today, August 26 is National Dog Day, so I would like to recognize all the wonderful dogs in this world that not only give us companionship, but have become one of our family.

Morgan’s puppy Wylah May was too young at the time of Morgan’s murder to be able to protect her, but trust me now that she is all grown up she is one of the most loyal and protective dogs I have ever seen.

Morgan loved her puppy Wylah May, and in this post I would like to honor that love on National Dog Day.

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A Memory from April 2013 –

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Some exciting news…KDNK our small local radio station won an award for the series they did on “What Happened to Morgan Ingram?”

Click on http://www.kdnk.org/news.cfm and enter Morgan Ingram under the search archives on the right side of the page to watch the series about Morgan that KDNK produced, if you haven’t listened to it before.  It has interviews with experts in their field about Morgan’s case.

The Radio Television Digital News Association has announced the winners of the 2013 Regional Edward R. Murrow Awards. The awards recognize work of the highest quality produced by radio, television and online news organizations around the world.
KDNK Community Radio in Carbondale has won the award for “Best News Series” in Small Market Radio for Region 3 which is comprised of Arizona, Colorado, New Mexico, Utah and Wyoming.
The series, titled “What Happened to Morgan Ingram?” was produced by Ed Williams and Eric Skalac, KDNK’s full time reporters.  “For more than 40 years, the Edward R. Murrow Award has honored the best of electronic journalism,” said Mike Cavender, Executive Director of RTDNA. “This year’s winners represent the outstanding work being done in local  newsrooms, which we are proud to recognize.”
“I am proud of our news efforts. It’s wonderful to be recognized for the work in the news department. This is a big part of what we do,” said KDNK General Manager Steve Skinner.A record number of award entries were submitted, and judges selected winners in 13 regions across the United States and from international entrants from across the globe. The regional winners are automatically entered in the national Edward R. Murrow Awards competition, which will be judged during the summer. National awards will be presented at the New York Marriott Marquis in New York City on Columbus Day.
The Radio Television Digital News Association has been honoring outstanding achievements in electronic journalism with the Edward R. Murrow Awards since 1971. Award recipients demonstrate the spirit of excellence that Murrow set as a standard for the profession of electronic journalism.
KDNK’s local and regional news stories are archived at KDNK.org.
CONGRATULATIONS KDNK! and that you for your hard work in raising awareness of stalking and the tragedy of Morgan’s Stalking.