Sunday, March 17, 2019 – A Little Reminder Left Behind

This morning I looked in Mogwai’s bed, (Mogwai is Morgan’s cat…her fur baby that she loved so very much), and I saw one of the little cat toys she had crocheted for him…he still has it. As you can see it is very worn after 7 + years, but he still cuddles it in his bed.

Morgan was constantly making things for everyone, with her own two hands. In the weeks before her murder she was knitting gloves for one close friend, painting glasses for other friends, and baking goodies for relatives. She had gone shopping with me and found matching P.J.’s for her and her sister for Christmas, as Christmas was only weeks away. She asked if we were going to pick up a tree cutting permit again this year, in order to hike up in the mountains to find the perfect tree to bring home. That was always a fun outing, including hot chocolate and lots of laughter.

Morgan was excited about the possibility that her stalker would soon be arrested…she was scheduled to give her on-camera interview only 4 1/2 days from when her life was taken from her. She was scared, she was nervous, but she was also excited that life could go back to how it once was, after an arrest was made. She had also been going through all her stuff and packing up boxes and putting them in our dining room, just as Steve and I had started to do, as we were planning on moving to a safer new home…but we were too late. Just 23 days before Christmas, she was gone and all her plans and dreams, along with all of ours were gone forever.

None of us ever stop thinking about Morgan. We all miss her, even her fur babies miss her. But all our memories stay with us. Everywhere I look I still see Morgan.

Another FACT You Might Wish To Know…

Whenever I have been invited to be on a Podcast I have always been given a chance to talk about stalking in general in order to raise awareness.  That it would revolve back to my daughter Morgan’s stalking and death is unavoidable and I believe it is very helpful in order to raise awareness about the dangers of stalkers.

The mistakes and shortcomings in Morgan’s case should not be lost in the effort to help others in similar situations.  In telling her story as accurately as I could it has already helped countless stalking victims throughout the world, and while it is painful at times, I have no regrets, and I take pride in the accomplishments.  Thanks to all of you who listened to these Blog Radio Shows and I encourage you to support victims of stalking, as it is a devastating crime.

As I read some of the comments from the last show that I was on I saw some familiar “anonymous” people making the same false claims they have been making for years.  This is a reality that exists, they give no real identity, because if it is the mother, family or friends of the prime suspect in Morgan’s case, then the mistruths would become all that less believable.  A website that we are now working on is growing to address all the real truth about Morgan with the REAL documents, I do work full time as a victim advocate, and while Steve helps me immensely, we only have so much time, and this is a big project. Our names will be on this website and we will stand behind everything that is printed on it, unlike the anonymous “others” making false statments out on the Internet.

It seems that Porphyria was the popular subject that evening, The FACT is our daughter Morgan was tested for many different things after being exposed to Carbon Monoxide, which hurt her health.  One of those many things she was tested for was Porphyria, twice, long, long, ago and both tests were negative, and both tests were “possibly compromised,” so we discounted them.  So, when the contracted forensic pathologist, who is responsible for Morgan’s autopsy, came up with Porphyria I asked him if this claim was due to something he found medically at autopsy, or through testing, his answer was no, he said, “She was tested in the past for it because she had it.”  I am still mystified by his blind insistence.  He told me that she was talking amitriptyline for her Porphyria, which proves she had it. Well (A) I told him she was most definitely NOT talking Amitriptyline, (B) I did not know Amitriptyline was even for Porphyria (it is not), and (C) she was never diagnosed with Porphyria.  His answer was that amitriptyline was found in her blood, so she was taking it. Unbelievable!  If he understood toxicology (we consulted an esteemed, highly regarded forensic toxicologist back east who could see from the results that she HAD NOT been taking it and it was a one time massive dose). The pathologist then admitted he did not know that much about Porphyria, so he would be open to talking to someone from a large hospital out on the coast that would see this condition far more often than he would.  This became an exercise in futility as a doctor who treated Morgan became involved and tried to send him medical documentation showing she did not have Porphyria.  An absolutely brilliant, and ever-giving doctor, as well as a professor many times over at the UCLA Medical Center Children’s Hospital, tried unsuccessfully to explain that Morgan could not have died in the manner the contracted forensic pathologist thought she had.  He never listened to one word she said…so much for his being open to speaking with someone with more knowledge then him.

Other of Morgan’s doctors, and specialists jumped in, and all were unanimous in that this manner of death was wrong.  Nothing changed, and later when I was threatened with a change in regard to the manner of death from natural causes to suicide, if I did not give up, I was assured by doctors that the contracted forensic pathologist could not do this.  So, I was plenty shocked when he actually did change her manner of death from natural causes to suicide 8 months after his first false conclusion of natural causes.  As a very concerned mother and parent I will traverse the trail before me until there is truth, because Morgan did nothing to deserve a complete lack of fairness, respect and dignity following her murder.  And I did nothing to deserve the intimidation that is running rampant – I have always given facts and the truth about what really happened and no amount of intimidation  will keep me from using my voice.

If you are interested the subject of Morgan’s “manner of death is covered more completely in this post. –

Stalked everywhere you go…even leaving work

Stalking has serious impacts on victims!

Most people need their jobs to survive and are reluctant to tell co-workers, and/or their employer about their stalker – they want to pretend he/she will eventually stop. They have no idea why it started in the first place. We must all realize stalking is serious and can have fatal consequences

This young man obsessed over a girl from his high school for many years before he finally struck and ended her life…and there were many red flags, but they were ignored. We all need to take stalking seriously. Civil lawsuits are an option for victims and co-victims.

One Family’s Civil Suit

On October 15, 1999, New Hampshire resident Liam Youens, shot and killed Amy Lynn Boyer, a young woman he had been stalking for several years. Her family sued a company for giving out her employment location information to her stalker and won.

Another Real Fact…Not Fiction

Here is another real fact…in Garfield County, whether you call the Dispatch number or 911, it really doesn’t matter, as they both go to the same call center with the same operators. This is a FACT. We were told this fact in the very beginning when the Garfield County Sheriffs became involved in our case and they gave us the number for Dispatch to call when we had an incident of stalking. In a 4 month period we called over 50 times, but there were times that we didn’t call as we fell into the trap many victims of stalking fall into…minimizing what was happening, trying to pretend it will just go away and thinking if we just ignore it then it will stop…this is a tombstone mentality and I hope, through Morgan’s story other victims of stalking will know not to fall into that same trap.

I have read on the Internet some “uniformed” people commenting on why would we call Dispatch instead of 911 if we were so worried about a stalker…seriously, they really did question even that piece of information. For them this was just another reason why the stalking couldn’t have been that bad…they were once again, dead wrong!

So today I remembered that old saying. Don’t confuse them with the FACTS…some people just want to be right, no matter how wrong they are. So sad 🙁


Real Facts…Not Fake, Sensationalized Statements At The Expense of Accuracy

Here are the facts: Morgan was NOT on antidepressants and NEVER was…

When misinformed people, as well as Sheriffs and Coroners, jump to the WRONG conclusion and refuse to do their own research, or conduct an investigation so they can listen to the victim’s doctors, you end up with an outcome which is totally WRONG.  Morgan was not depressed, Morgan had never been suicidal, Morgan was a victim of a stalker!

Here are the FACTS: Morgan never was on antidepressants, and she did not have a prescription for them.  Morgan was diagnosed with a condition called hyperalgesia, brought on by chronic long-term exposure to low-levels of carbon monoxide.  This condition caused Morgan chronic pain when she was younger, and a low-dose prescription of Amitriptyline (Elival) was prescribed for her originally by Children’s Hospital in Denver.  Morgan had stopped taking it approximately 2 years before her death, as she had developed an extremely healthy, holistic lifestyle to control and rid herself of her chronic pain.  Morgan was a strong and independent young woman and it is completely disingenuous, as well as being a LIE, when people say she was on an antidepressant – it is absolutely NOT true.

FACT: Amitriptyline is often used in lower doses when used to treat chronic pain, and higher doses are used to treat depression.  In low doses, this medicine relieves pain. In higher doses, it has antidepressant effects.  Years ago Morgan had been prescribed a low dose – first 10 mg then the final dosage was 25 mg once a day…a low dose of this medication is prescribed for the relief of chronic pain. This medicine is reserved for long-term (chronic) pain syndromes. It may also help relieve sleeping problems and fatigue caused by chronic pain.

Morgan had an old EXPIRED bottle of Amitriptyline in her room at the time of her death.  The sheriffs gave that bottle to the Deputy Coroner, and from that time on the FACTS did not matter – the forensic pathologist ignored the fact that the bottle was expired and almost full, he ignored the fact that my husband and I told him she was not taking it, he ignored the fact that her doctors and all her medical records showed she was not taking it, he ignored the fact that the pharmacy records showed it had not been filled in almost 2 years, and he ignored the most important part of this…the scientific fact that the toxicology results prove she was NOT taking the drug, that this was a one-time massive dose that killed her. Dr. Robert Kurtzman, the forensic pathologist that conducted Morgan’s autopsy, called it INSIGNIFICANT!  This was an amount which could not be ingested, it had to be injected into her in order to have that amount in her blood.  The forensic FACT is, if Morgan had ingested the medication, she would have been dead before the levels could have reached 1,000 ng in her blood, but Morgan’s toxicology shows she had 7,900 ngs + it’s derivative in her blood – which means she had over 10,000 ng that went directly into her blood!!!  And the idiot Kurtzman said it was insignificant – actually writing on a piece of paper his calculation for PMR (postmortem redistribution) of the drug to make us think the amount really wasn’t that big a deal, but it certainly was the cause of Morgan’s death.  When confronted with the facts he also told us, “The parents are the last to know if their kids are taking a medication.”  Seriously, he said that…none of the FACTS above mattered to him, not even the scientific fact that he was completely wrong in his calculation, because PMR had not even started, due to the timing of when the blood was drawn.  Oh, and I guess Vallario must also have a problem with his vision because we have the crime scene photos, which CLEARLY show, what many believe is an injection mark, with a possible bite mark over it, on the inside of Morgan’s arm…what is Vallario’s excuse for that?

Morgan’s dad and I are NOT doctors, or scientists, we only know these facts because we have been blessed to have so many knowledgable experts review Morgan’s toxicology results and give us the facts.  These experts have given us documentation showing the facts in black and white, but Garfield County, along with some uniformed trolls on the Internet, prefer to spread their lies, contrary of scientific facts and medical certainty…I really wish people would do their own research, instead of blindly believing people that have no medical degree and have absolutely no knowledge of what they are talking about.  Only FACTS will hold up in a court of law when the time comes for #Justice4Morgan.

So the bottom line is…using wild speculation, instead of facts:

Dr. Robert Kurtzman listed Morgan’s Manner of Death as Natural Causes for the first 9 months after her murder, stating the Amitriptyline in her blood was INSIGNIFICANT, so NO INVESTIGATION into her murder was ever done by the sheriff.  Kurtzman wrote that Morgan was taking Amitriptyline for a condition she never had, Acute Intermittent Porphyria – ANOTHER LIE…Not only is Amitriptyline NOT a medication for AIP (which I found out by actually doing our own due diligence and contacting medical experts on AIP), Morgan’s doctors told him he was wrong, but his lies went on and on, creating an environment that insured Morgan’s murder would never be investigated.  Why?  Is he this incompetent, or arrogant, is that is the reason he wouldn’t listen to Morgan’s family, doctors or forensic medical experts?  Or is there something worse hidden behind his obvious mistakes?

Then after threats to myself by Dr. Robert Kurtzman, to stop asking questions about his findings, Kurtzman changed Morgan’s Manner of Death to Suicide – which in turn gave Sheriff Lou Vallario the opportunity to tell a reporter in September of 2011 that he supports the Coroner’s finding of Suicide and will never investigate our daughter’s death…yes, Vallario really said that, so again NO INVESTIGATION.  What does he really mean when he says his officers follow the evidence where it leads?  Don’t the crime scene photos count as leads?  His officers were at the scene of the crime.  The photos show 3 torn nails, with abrasions on the top and bottom of that hand…they show a wound on her temple with blood, and blood on her teeth, a fat lip, her hair all matted up, her pants unzipped and unbuttoned, they show her bottom bed sheet missing off her bed, they show an obvious injection mark, with a BITE mark over it on the inside of her arm, they show her lividity, which doesn’t match the position her body was found in…her body had been “staged” in a different position to look as though she had died in her sleep, blanket pulled up to her shoulder – her body was obviously moved some time after lying dead in a different position. And oh, wait a minute, almost forgot his own officer used a UV light over her body and wrote in his report that she had spot show up on her chest under the light – they were never tested, but you probably know what they were.  The crime scene photos also show Morgan leaving a message with her hands – she was signing two letters as though trying to tell us who murdered her.  So Vallario – how is it again that your officers follow the evidence where it leads?  Your officers would have to be blind, deaf and dumb to miss that trail of leads – or they would have had to go along to get along because they were just following orders…and whose orders would those be?  You wrote on your newly formed Facebook page,”Law enforcement officers are supposed to protect people,” but that isn’t what you do Lou – you cover for the criminal and blame it on the District Attorney.  Give your officers the tools, education and correct protocol that other sheriffs use in order to protect the citizens – actions speak volumes, not empty words.

Morgan was murdered during an ACTIVE INVESTIGATION INTO HER FELONY STALKING and there was NEVER an investigation…and that needs to change.  Those are the FACTS, and no one can re-write history.

There needs to be an investigation into our daughter, Morgan’s murder – do the right thing Sheriff Vallario!  You say, “Just the Facts,” well here are the FACTS, and you have known them all along – but facts don’t seem to matter to you in reality, do they Lou?

If you are a citizen of Garfield County Colorado please know that Sheriff Vallario was up for re-election last year, and ran unopposed…and again he is the Sheriff.  Let the newspapers know how you feel about the way he has treated the citizens of Garfield County during his terms as sheriff.  Let them know that you care about your family and want a sheriff that will protect and serve, and not just hide real crime under the rug.

Let Vallario know that you want transparency and accountability in the sheriff’s office, even if that means starting an independent task force to look into crimes that citizens believe are being overlooked.  Use your voice – it is your most powerful tool.