To The Moon & Back…

I always told Morgan, “I Love You To The Moon and Back,” and now, through my tears, I tell her, “I Miss You To The Moon and Back.”

I know she wouldn’t want me to cry like this, but I also know that she understands.  An invisible bond exists between a mother and her child – it forms as they grow inside, before they are even born into this world.  It is a bond that even death can not sever.

Ever since Morgan was a toddler, her and I had a little secret between us…whenever we were holding hands we would “squeeze” the others hand to say, “I love you.”  No one else would know, and we would always smile after the other one “squeezed.”  I feel so blessed when I remember that even during her last 4 months, even during the horrific, life-altering stalking, we still had moments when we “squeezed” each others hands…I just wish we could still do it.  Now there are times when I feel her close by, and I squeeze the air with my hand in the hope that she still feels it.

It is now Thursday, November 30th – and I am dreading this coming Saturday, as it will be 6 years since Morgan was taken from us.  Yes, taken from us at the hands of another.  One day, when those who were involved in taking her life, are held accountable, we will finally feel like justice was served, but there will never be closure – how could there be?  There can never be closure when such a violent, senseless act has stolen the life of your child.  Morgan will never get to finish her last 2 years of college, never be able to go to law school, never have a career, or a wedding, or children.  She will never get to go on vacations to Lithuania and Italy, as she planned.  She was teaching herself Lithuanian, and would call me “Motina.”  On her cell phone I was listed as Motina, that was how it showed up when I called, or sent her a text message.  It means mother, and love in Lithuanian…the sadness that I feel is so overwhelming today, it is hard to put into words, so now, I will stop trying.

 

The Crime Watch Daily 4 Part Series of Morgan’s Stalking and Murder

Morgan and Dad in happy times on a family trip

Having fun posing on an old train, along the way to Santa Fe, New Mexico.

Please see the 4 part Crime Watch Daily special about Morgan’s case. Kelly McLear produced it, Nerissa Knight was the investigative reporter and was really great, and all of the many others whom Steve and I never had the chance to meet all worked so hard to tell what they could about Morgan’s case. I am so grateful for all of their hard work and diligence. What a great, great job they did on her story.

To see it, first you could go to the Crime Watch Daily website. They have the story and links to all four videos here: Crime Watch Daily.com website

Or Crime Watch Daily has a facebook page with all four videos posted as well, here are the links:

Pt. 1: Was Morgan Ingram’s Death a Murder or Suicide? – Crime Watch Daily

Pt. 2: Was Morgan Ingram’s Death a Murder or Suicide? – Crime Watch Daily

Pt. 3: Was Morgan Ingram’s Death a Murder or Suicide? – Crime Watch Daily

Pt. 4: Was Morgan Ingram’s Death a Murder or Suicide? – Crime Watch Daily

And if you prefer youtube, the series is also listed there under the Crime Watch Daily banner;

Pt. 1: Was Morgan Ingram’s Death a Murder or Suicide? – Crime Watch Daily

Pt. 2: Was Morgan Ingram’s Death a Murder or Suicide? – Crime Watch Daily

Pt. 3: Was Morgan Ingram’s Death a Murder or Suicide? – Crime Watch Daily

Pt. 4: Was Morgan Ingram’s Death a Murder or Suicide? – Crime Watch Daily

Let me know what you think after watching all 4 parts – the feedback today has been extremely positive, and as always I encourage stalking victims to view Morgan’s story as educational, compare it to your own case, or that of a friend you know believes or is certain they are being stalked. Understanding stalkers and stalking is difficult, anything that helps a victim of stalking to better deal with their own situation is so important.

Morgan was courageous, a fighter to her bitter and very tragic end. Don’t let this happen to you!

The Voice & Giggles of Love…You Can Hear Morgan’s Voice

I can still hear Morgan’s soft, sweet voice, as well as her laughter.  Here is a short recording that I found on her laptop, after she was gone – it was recorded during the stalking.  Throughout that horrific 4 months, we all kept trying our best to keep going, to have a life, and do all the things we used to do…it was hard, but the 3 of us tried.  Why?  Because we loved each other and didn’t want anyone or anything to change us.  But they did – they ended Morgan’s life, which changed us all forever.

This the recording Morgan made herself on her cell phone.  It is just a short recording of us goofing off.  She wanted to record me saying, “I Toni Ingram…,” but we kept laughing so hard I couldn’t finish what she wanted me to say.  You can hear Morgan say, “Alright, come on…” and then laugh.  We could never finish it because we were both laughing so hard.

I miss those times so much and it hurts…but I am so happy we had them.  I would never exchange all those moments, in the short 20 years that Morgan was in my life – never for anything else in the whole world.  I love her and miss her so much – life is, and never will be the same.  How could it be?  It never could.

When you have a child that has been taken from you forever, there will always be a hole in your heart that can never be filled – this is why there will never be closure for us – yes, we will continue to push forward for justice for Morgan, but closure…that will never happen, the pain will stay with our whole family forever.

THE PATHOLOGIST COULDN’T EVEN GET THE VICTIM’S EYE COLOR RIGHT – WAS HE BLIND?

MORGAN HAD BEAUTIFUL BLUE EYES –  BUT THAT IS NOT THE EYE COLOR THE PATHOLOGIST, DR. ROBERT KURTZMAN, WROTE ON HIS REPORTS.  HOW DID HE GET HER EYE COLOR WRONG AND NEVER CORRECT IT WHEN IT WAS BROUGHT TO HIS ATTENTION? – something as simple as her eye color…  

WHY DIDN’T HE MENTION, AND TEST, THE “SPOTS” SEEN UNDER THE UV LIGHT ON HER CHEST?  These “spots” were mentioned in the police report and the First Responders said it wasn’t from anything they used on her when they took over. What good is using a light to scan a possible crime scene for bodily fluids, if the light detects things, and those things are ignored and never tested…how does this make any sense?  Is this called investigating and following where the evidence leads?  I think not even close – why are possible crime scenes investigated by untrained people without any clue about a proper crime scene protocol?

HOW COULD THE PATHOLOGIST NOT BE SUSPICIOUS OF THE “ABRASIONS” AND “BROKEN NAILS” ON MORGAN’S RIGHT HAND, WRIST, AND BREAST, AS WELL AS THE WOUND ON HER FOREHEAD, AND INJECTION MARK ON THE INSIDE OF HER ARM? The crime scene photos, taken by the Deputy Coroner, clearly show this evidence, but the pathologist just glanced over it – I guess it didn’t fit his personal “speculation.”  The forensic pathologist, working for the coroner, in the state of Colorado at that time was the person responsible for the investigation of the crime scene, as well as the autopsy. He ignored all evidence, did not want any information from Morgan’s doctors, or family or other forensic medical examiners, ignored the scientific evidence from her toxicology reports and refused to fix all the mistakes he made on his reports.

HOW COULD HE NOT BE SUSPICIOUS OF THE “ABRASIONS” AND “BROKEN NAILS” ON HER RIGHT HAND –  These would normally be considered all obvious signs of a struggle.  What about the injection mark, with what looks like a bite mark over it, on the inside of her arm?  How the hell can he ignore that when she had a date rape drug “amitriptyline” in a massive amount (10x’s what would have killed her) in her blood – the amount that would have been in a vile at the ranch behind our house that “they” had access to, enough for a 1,200 lb. horse!

Why didn’t  the pathologist, Dr. Robert Kurtzman, do a rape kit on Morgan to make sure she wasn’t sexually assaulted?  Her pants were unzipped and unbuttoned and there was visible liquid on her pants, that even the First Responders wrote about – and yet no mention of this is in the pathologist’s reports, and he told me over the phone, that he is not allowed to do a rape kit unless the sheriffs tell him to do so.  And he is the one, according to Colorado law, responsible for the investigation.  Crazy – I know – infuriating and true!

Morgan was a young woman, killed during an active investigation into her felony stalking, and her death was called “suspicious” so she was taken to this pathologist, Dr. Robert Kurtzman, for an autopsy, and he doesn’t even test under her nails, not even where the nails are torn at an angle, doesn’t even do a rape kit, even though her pants are unzipped and unbuttoned, and clearly show no evidence of being on her body when she died, and her lividity became set (lividity shows she was dressed some time after death).

This all adds up to a staged crime scene, where her body was moved postmortem.  They could see from the frozen position of her bent legs and arms that she had not died lying flat down, or on a bed lying on her side – her body had been moved after it had frozen into the position she died in.  Body of proof.  Crime scene 101 – if you see evidence that the body has been moved, then someone else moved it…bodies do not move on their own.

The forensic pathologist, Dr. Robert Kurtzman, engaged in pure speculation – not scientific or medical certainty, as he is tasked to do – no, he botched Morgan’s autopsy, intentionally, or out of laziness, and ego, allowing her to never have an investigation into her suspicious death…but “suspicious” death was the reason her body was brought to him for an autopsy in the first place!

I know some people don’t like to hear that – it’s upsetting and scary.  But no amount of candy-coating, from people that do not want her death to be investigated, can change that fact.  Morgan still needs, and can receive justice for what was done to her.

All the evidence needed for Morgan’s case to become a homicide investigation was right there, the morning of her murder, for the sheriffs to see and collect, but they did not collect it, they did not write what they actually observed in their reports – they did nothing, but attempt to minimize an obvious murder scene. And I do not really believe that all the officers that were there that morning were all on board with this cover-up.  I think they did not want to go along with it, but they were given no choice and it has been eating them up ever since.  See how the ripple effect comes into play and there becomes so many lives altered from just one heinous act.   

The forensic pathologist, Dr. Robert Kurtzman, got nothing right…unless typing that Morgan was a 20-year-old female.  REMEMBER HE COULDN’T EVEN GET HER EYE COLOR CORRECT ON HIS REPORT!!!  

AND I COULD GO ON AND ON ABOUT THINGS THAT WERE NOT DONE, THINGS THAT WERE NEVR MENTIONED…HORRIFYING THAT OUR DAUGHTER’S AUTOPSY WAS LEFT UP TO A PATHOLOGIST THAT DID NONE OF THE REQUIRED PROCEDURES, INSTEAD HE ENGAGED IN PURE SPECULATION, NOT SCIENTIFIC OR MEDICAL CERTAINTY – all adding up to our daughter Morgan not receiving justice yet, and murderer(s) remaining free to reoffend.

This is a true American horror story, and it needs to end now.  Morgan needs her case investigated, she needs justice and I feel for the other families who have lost loved ones in Montana, where Dr. Kurtzman is now performing autopsies.

– Morgan needs justice because justice is a RIGHT –

Help Solve This Unsolved Crime – Justice For Morgan!

Please share with everyone you know, and if you can please Tweet a link to this post to any, or all, the Colorado Representatives listed in the hash tags below (especially Kent Lambert of the 9th District where the crime occurred @KentLambert ‏) …let’s get justice for Morgan!

Morgan loved & cared about everyone – now we can all help. Talk to each other about her stalking and murder – listen and call the tip line at NORCO with any little bit of information…you can stay anonymous. There is a reward for information leading to an arrest, you can become a hero for Morgan.

Living life to the fullest means never living in fear, following your path, and being of service to others – it is an awesome feeling. Thanks!

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