Morgan’s Murder – Day 1…It was hard to see through our shock for a very long time

The truck that Morgan needed after she was killed, The Colorado Bureau of Investigation, not a Hearst.

The truck that Morgan should have had on scene the morning her body was found, the Colorado Bureau of Investigation, not a Hearst.

Morgan’s murder wasn’t really thought to be a murder at all, not on that first day, it was explained to us by the Sheriffs detective as clearly a mystery.  There were many things accepted as facts that morning as they came rolling out, first we were told there was no connection to her stalking – none at all, this took minutes for the detective to determine this fact, so you would assume there was great evidence to support this conclusion, and we trusted and believed we were being told the truth at that time.  We were experiencing shock and horror at that very moment and could not wrap our heads around anything. Next we were told there was no sign of forced entry, no sign of sexual assault, no sign of a struggle, and no sign of suicide.  I can remember those words whistling through my ears, and the foreign reassurance they brought with them, but I can’t help but wonder how could they have known those things at that time without any investigation? Why did they not collect any forensic evidence that very morning?

But then, if you had been Morgan’s mother for twenty years, there were things you would know, things deep within your heart, things akin to all the mother/daughter attachments Morgan and I had always shared over her lifetime.  What was being shared with me that morning about Morgan’s death seemed attached to strange external forces, things beyond any of our control, and not by any means logical or intuitive…just strange, for lack of a better word.

While so much of that day was clouded within the grief of the moment, at the same time I remember some things very vividly as they transpired throughout that day.  As in the detective from Garfield County, Robert Glassmire telling me that they had scanned the entire room and they had found no bodily fluids anywhere.  I can still see myself responding immediately with disbelief, as I told him that Morgan had not yet washed her sheets this week, so there must have been something detected, she had a puppy, and a cat, and.…he assured me that there was nothing.  Now I know why her sheets didn’t show anything – her sheets were gone!  I am no investigator, but I would think that a detective being told that she hadn’t washed her sheets yet, knowing her sheets were missing just might think that something is wrong with this crime scene.  Where were Morgan’s sheets?  Who took them?  They never showed up anywhere…unfortunately we didn’t realize they were gone at the time, because we were only focused on calling 911 and giving her CPR until the emergency responders showed up, we were trying to save her, and then we were told to leave our house.  I never realized her sheets were gone until we received crime scene photos of her room almost 2 years later.

I vividly remember that her body seems posed to me.  That was the worst feeling, that her body position was all wrong, so wrong.  I told Detective Glassmire exactly how I found Morgan and how it looked all wrong, for reasons I can’t fully explain.  I can tell you exactly where I was standing, and even the position I was facing when I told him.  I will never question the strange feeling I had at the time, nor will I ever fully understand it.

There is always that saying you have all heard – having a child die is every parents worst nightmare.  In the many days that followed after Morgan’s death, days that all melted together, and then the months that followed that day, Steve and I would meet someone from our little valley that had been at our house that morning.  They would offer condolences, and they would also wonder, “How are you holding up?”  Are you okay?  They were parents too, and were shaken when they arrived on scene and found that Morgan was only 20 years old.  Today, I would tell them that if I ever experience anything worse, which is not even remotely feasible to me, that I would be sure to tell them.  But the ability to understand is something that comes with time, if ever.  A long time, exactly how much time I am not sure, definitely different for everyone, but for me it did not come within months, and only now can I see that within years I am finally beginning to understand.  All this time I thought I was being strong, asking questions, digging for answers, but in reality when I look back now I can see that my realization had been slowed by my complete and overwhelming grief.  If it wasn’t for our amazing grief counselor I don’t know how Steve and I would have made it through the first two years after Morgan’s murder.  And with the support and love from family, friends, and even strangers I was able to become stronger and stronger, but it still has taken such a long time.

Morgan’s room was still taped off as a crime scene when the Sheriffs all left, Steve and I would not be allowed back in there for days.  Days later we were able to see her room again. Then it was years upon years later before we would know any of the answers to the many questions we had asked on the morning of her death.  While there is so much I did not know that morning on December 2, 2011, there is so much I have very painfully learned over the months and years since.  And there is one thing I knew that morning for sure – that my very dear and very beloved daughter was now gone from this earth, in a way that continues to become only more horrific to us as time passes, and we learn more details about how she died.  This is the beginning of the story of Morgan’s murder…

So many have commented on what they perceive to be amazing strength to be doing what I am for my daughter, and I want to address that perception.  I appreciate people telling me that, it is so very kind and I am grateful, but in reality I don’t perceive myself as being strong, I am hurting inside just like any other mother would be, and doing only what I think any other mother would do in my situation, because they love their child so much, and want truth, and justice to prevail.  Morgan deserved so much better, and as lie after lie is exposed – what mother’s blood would not begin to boil?  I am just a mother who still wants the truth to be told, and only the truth to be told about what has happened to Morgan, not the lies and misdirection that have played out since her death.  It will happen one day, of that I am quite sure, and I will not rest until it does.

If you followed my blog about Morgan’s stalking you already know the Garfield County Sheriff’s department took over the investigation of her death, and pretty much have done whatever they pleased with the facts.  Beyond that it is safe to assume that murder, and Morgan Ingram will never coexist for Sheriff Lou Vallario who stands between Morgan and justice.  For Steve and I it has been quite a different path that has led us to today.  We have questioned what happened, and asked for answers from those most qualified to give them.

As the truth never changes, there are some truths about that day in 2011 that did not become known to us until much, much later.  Keenan Vanginkel, only days before Morgan’s murder was determined by Sheriff Detective Glassmire to be 100% guilty of Morgan’s stalking.  His work hours show that he clocked in at his job at 2:00 am the morning Morgan was killed, even more interesting is the fact that he clocked out for a break at 6:37am that same morning, this time may be significant as it was minutes after the ambulance carrying the first responders entered our driveway in a futile attempt to save Morgan.  This time clock also uses some biometric feature to insure that the represented person is the person who clocked in.  I have been assured of this by the security person that works for his employer.  So hypothetically,  if Brooke were to see the myriad of flashing lights three houses down the street from her house (she lived only 3 houses down from us) and called Keenan, he might clock out and go outside, well that much is not fact, but conjecture on my part.  I do know Brooke’s dad James called and left a message for his client that he could not make their meeting that morning because the sheriffs had put crime scene tape around his neighbors house, a house that had a girl that had been stalked, a stalker that the police thought was him at first but now they know it is his daughter’s ex-boyfriend and he has to stay home and monitor the situation and protect his daughter…I thought this was powerful when I heard about it, I told Detective Glassmire to speak with this client, the woman is the wife of a Pitkin County Sheriff, but Detective Glassmire could never seem to find the time to interview this witness.

Since that morning, in a constant way, my life has become a series of conjectures about what may have happened, and then a crusade to gather evidence that would support or dispel those theories.  I’m told this is called an investigation.  Something Morgan never had, for those of you who do not already know, Sheriff Lou Vallario went on TV to announce there would never be an investigation into Morgan’s death.  That was on the day her death was reclassified from natural causes, to a suicide, eight months after she was originally said to have died of natural causes.  You can bet that this assertion of natural causes and then suicide has been dug into deeply, and the facts I have to share are quite voluminous for just one blog, so I will only say this one thing below for now.

The Coroner decided, years after Morgan’s death, to release pictures to our family that were taken of the death scene the morning her body was discovered.  Not being experts in any way, we decided that only a very select group of expert individuals should review these pictures.  The first fact to come out was that Morgan’s body was moved after she had died.  Moved postmortem!  Please, someone  explain to me how a person’s death goes from natural causes to suicide when their body was moved after they were already dead?

On top of that, do not even bring up the fact that I was threatened by the contracted forensic pathologist that if I kept asking questions, and having Morgan’s doctors contact him with medical facts different than what he believed to be true that he could revisit her manner of death, and could possibly arrive at accidental overdose or suicide.  Which is exactly what he did months later after I did not “back off.”  This is the contracted forensic pathologist that works closely with the Garfield County Sheriffs department, the same Sheriffs office that were told verbally and in writing about those threats, and yes the same Sheriffs department that would never open an investigation into Morgan’s death in case you are wondering.  The same Sheriffs department who concluded within minutes, on the morning we found her body, that Morgan’s death had no connection to her stalking.  These facts are completely separate and I wanted to bring them all out into the light of day so that others who might be in a similar situation can learn from our families experiences.  I believe people in positions of trust should not be allowed to do these things.  I am sure in most cases families are in such immense pain, and suffering that they can not even bring themselves to ask questions of the authorities, even though they can feel that there is something wrong with what they are being told.  Revictimizing families is cruel and unjust and should not be allowed.

People say these things are only the shrill cry of a mother who can’t accept the truth – really?  When a mother finds foul play in the fact that her daughter’s body has been moved after she died, and a Sheriff that says he will never open an investigation into what is possibly a homicide, is that perfectly normal in any death amid a stalking under suspicious circumstances?  No wonder there is rarely ever a murder in Garfield County – for the previous six or seven years prior to Morgan’s death there were no murders, they want us to  just ignore the pesky fact that bodies kept showing up.  Just ignore it like Morgan’s stalking, ignore it all.  Accidental deaths and suicide are the accepted manner of deaths, but can we believe what we are being told?  I no longer do.

I guess Garfield County doesn’t want us to pay attention to a United States Congressman who states that every victim of stalking that he has heard about was murdered by their stalker.  I guess Garfield County thinks it is acceptable for everyone to believe without question that Morgan’s death had absolutely no connection to her actual felony stalking at the time her body was discovered.  The stalking that was feared to escalate days before her death.  The stalking that had patrols of our house and our neighborhood increased in the days before her death.  The stalking where she had positively identified her stalker and was scheduled to have a videotaped interview with the detectives in a few days, an interview that never took place, because she was killed. Specifically the stalking that supposedly had no connection to her murder.  Morgan was scheduled to leave that same morning on a pre-planned babysitting assignment for the returning military heroes defending our country.  These heroes that were going to a family retreat and recovering from their own ordeals…Morgan was stopped from going by her murderer.

And while it all seems and sounds to be so horribly wrong and completely dire, I would quickly like to say that while it has been all that and more for us and still is, there is something more to the story of Morgan’s murder, and that can’t be lost here.  Steve and I have come to learn something that is very important.  We have learned with so many that have come forward to help in the fight for justice for Morgan, that they are amazingly in this for the long haul.  It portents solutions, and even healing for other victims as well, for the victims of stalking, as well as the victims of every other crime, including the families of the victims of capital crimes after their loved ones have been robbed of their most basic liberty – their life.  With the support of these caring supporters victims can, and do recover.  These victims need to be believed.  They need someone to help them.  Morgan would never have cared about herself over another.  It has been without doubt the hardest lesson that Steve and I have been forced to learn since her tragic death.  That she was far more understanding of the world than we were.  That our daughter had lessons to teach us even after she died.

I will now leave you with this…as Morgan died, she managed to communicate more than I could even begin to understand.  This story that I will now be writing about will be about death and murder, and all of the unpleasantries that go hand in hand.  It will share most all, but never all the facts that I have come to know since her death.  There will always be the facts that only Morgan’s murderer would have known.  Hopefully that part can keep secreted away until it is needed.  Until then, we all miss you Morgan…and I will never stop expecting that in the end you will have justice.

Morgan’s murder…we fight back with truth & facts

Colorado - beautiful, but what secrets lurk?

Colorado – it’s beautiful, but is it now a happy hunting ground for predators?  And I am not referring to mountain lions.

A very interesting occurrence keeps repeating itself over, and over again.  Recently when I blogged about releasing evidence on Morgan’s case it brought out the same bottom feeders that have been spreading lies all around the Internet about me, Morgan, our family, etc. ever since this website, and blog was originally launched.  They came out in force – calling my cell phone, attacking some vocal supporters (Cyber-stalking by calling their place of business, calling their cell phones, blasting loud music over the phone, and on and on), going on the Internet to again spread untruths as if they know what they are talking about – which they don’t. I want to be very clear that as far as Steve and I are concerned we view it all as a distraction (even though cyber-stalking is a crime, and should be punished as one), if we let it get to us it would distract us from what we need to do in order to get justice for Morgan, so we don’t – we do not want or need, and will not engage in any distractions.  It is like having a fly in the room buzzing around – you may want to take the time to swat at it, but if you are in a rush to get something done you just don’t bother. Now after getting that off my chest I know I probably shouldn’t have even mentioned it, but I have found out from many national victims experts that this is a phenomenon that is occurring all over our country – people attacking victims, strange, but very true.  Sometimes they are the family of the criminal, sometimes friends of the family of the criminal, and sometimes even families of other criminals that feel like by attacking other victims it justifies their existence…either way it’s sick!  And when members of the criminal justice system do not respond appropriately to this type of intimidation, and fail to correct system deficiencies that enable opportunities for these people to intimidate victims and victim’s families, they become inadvertent accomplices to these intimidators.  FACT:  As stated by someone else in September of 2011 –  Morgan’s stalking was not a figment of a young woman’s imagination.  Her terrorizing was not only observed by others, but also recorded on security cameras placed around her home (and yes after we realized she had a stalker we had a camera pointed at her bedroom windows, as did the sheriffs themselves, once it became a felony stalking case, they had their own camera pointed at it as well).  The case was elevated to the level of felony stalking by the Investigators due to escalating events, not by Morgan or her family.  In other words, evidence was there to prove a perpetrator existed. FACT:  Predatory stalkers – for the predatory stalker, stalking is foreplay; the real goal is sexual assault. Steve and I believe this is the type of stalker Morgan had.  Please read this article by Joni E. Johnston, Psy.D. that was published in Psychology Today http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-human-equation/201212/the-predatory-stalker  FACT:  It has been a very long journey since the morning we found Morgan’s lifeless body in her bedroom, and our lives were forever changed.  That cold grey morning on December 2, 2011 I screamed for Steve to come into Morgan’s room, as Steve ran in and rolled Morgan over from her side onto her back, I called 911, I could hear Steve – crying out and begging Morgan to breathe, while giving her CPR.  I could hear him while I was on the phone with the 911 operator, my world was starting to swirl out of control – my soul was telling me she was no longer in her body, but I was trying not to listen to myself, I wanted with every cell in my body for Steve to be able to save her. There was so much that we did not know back then, and in our complete shock and horror we could not see the forest through the trees.  We were too trusting…the only thing that kept us asking questions was a gut feeling, and the need to keep busy, and get answers.  We were told by the lead detective that very morning, before her body was taken away for an autopsy, that her death had nothing to do with the stalking.  How could you know that we asked?  We were told there was no signs of forced entry, no sign of a struggle, no sign of sexual assault, no sign of suicide, it was a mystery until the autopsy was completed, and the toxicology results were in.  Then on the 19th of December we were told Morgan died of natural causes.  We desperately needed to understand how our healthy 20 year old could die of natural causes when she had a stalker that we were told would most likely escalate his behavior only 2 days earlier.  We were worried that if it really was natural causes that our grandchildren could be in danger.  We needed answers, and refused to give up.  The quest for answers was extremely painful as we slowly peeled back layers and layers of deceit, that at times were so hard to understand due to lack of response from the Sheriff & Coroner’s offices. The forensic pathologist would not budge from his decision that she died of natural causes, although the information that was being given to him, information that would explain how his conclusion was incorrect came from specialists in the medical field, not us.  In our quest for the truth I was threatened, I then informed both the Sheriff & Coroner’s offices, they did not respond, only to have that exact threat fulfilled when Morgan’s manner of death was changed from natural causes to a suicide 8 months after her murder.  I guess everyone thought we would back off…the truths we have uncovered have taken us over 2 years, and it has been a slow tortuous journey.  We have been told time is on our side – I really couldn’t comprehend that statement at the time, but now after information and evidence has presented itself so long after her murder I finally do understand the truth in that statement.  What we know today we did not know 2 years ago, not 1 year ago, not even 6 months ago.  My blog reflected the truth about what we knew at that time that I made those entries, using what we had in front of us at that moment – what we know now is so much more.  This has been a process, and a journey I pray no other parents will ever have to go through, although I know there have been other families that already have gone through this nightmare, and many more that will probably go through this same thing in the future if changes are not made.  It is NOT okay to be complicit when it comes to a crime I don’t care who you are; especially if you are sworn to serve and protect.  The truth always needs to come out, and should not be buried and ignored. FACT:  The first thing I want to say is that Detective Rob Glassmire (the Detective assigned to Morgan’s felony stalking case) told me 2 days before Morgan’s murder that the following Tuesday he would be picking up the SUSPECT’S time sheet from City Market in El Jebel and would be laying it over my timeline in order to see if the SUSPECT’S hours coincided with the stalking events.  He not only did not do this at that time, but we never got to see the work hour schedule until over a year after Morgan was murdered.  I have since entered the SUSPECT’S hours into my timeline, and it makes me sick to my stomach to now see, in black and white,  almost every single incident of stalking/harassment/torture and murder that happened to Morgan was just before the SUSPECT clocked in at work, or right after he got off from work.  He worked mostly the graveyard shift, and it takes less than 5 minutes to drive from his place of employment at City Market to where our house was at the time.  This not only flies in the face of the STALKER’S mother’s email to me informing me that he wasn’t even in the state at the time of the murder (another lie), and that the SUSPECT was never around during any of the stalking incidents (how would she know when the stalking incidents took place?), but also the big question is why did Garfield County Sheriff Detective Rob Glassmire (the lead detective in Morgan’s FELONY STALKING CASE) not overlay the hours like he said he would? FACT:  By the time Detective Glassmire collected the SUSPECT’S hours he already had a dead 20 year old woman, one that had been in excellent physical condition, except that she had a stalker, she had identified the stalker, she had wanted to get a protective order, he had said 2 days before her murder that he felt the stalking was going to escalate. Unbeknownst to us at the time he had told one of the SUSPECTS, only 4 days before the murder, that the following week he would be collecting the suspects hours to overlay them over my timeline and that on the same day he would be formally interviewing Morgan on camera for her official statement.  Now was this a rookie mistake?  Was this intentional?  Did this contribute to Morgan’s murder?  We may never know, and by the time that Tuesday came when Detective Glassmire was supposed to collect those hours, interview Morgan, and wrap up the case, Morgan had already been dead for 4 1/2 days…it was too late.  Is this why the very morning he arrived at our house, after we found Morgan’s lifeless body, he had emphatically told us her death was a mystery, but he was positive it had nothing to do with the stalking?  Why would he say that without an investigation?  What was he trying to hide? Was the Garfield County Sheriff’s office planning on making an arrest the following week with just another slap on the wrist and then releasing the SUSPECT again, just like they, and the Glenwood Springs Police had done so many times in the past?  Did their plan go horribly wrong?  FACT: The SUSPECT had had at that time multiple past arrests for criminal trespass (maybe I am missing something here, but isn’t that what stalking is called before it becomes a felony stalking case?), suspicious events, drugs, drug paraphernalia, underage alcohol, etc. and then 24 days after Morgan’s murder the SUSPECT was arrested again.  This time he was pulled over on a “warrant” for selling stolen jewelry.  When Glenwood Springs Police pulled him over (the police dog alerted to the car he was driving so it was searched) he was arrested on multiple charges of having drugs, drug paraphernalia as well as felony distribution.  Before I ever knew about this arrest, in the first week after Morgan was murdered I had verbally told Detectective Glassmire (on phone calls, as well as in person) about items of jewelry that were missing from Morgan’s room.   He had asked me to let him know if I noticed anything missing the first day we were allowed back in her room.  He seemed to be concerned because I had described a few of these items that were missing, and told him a couple of the missing pieces of jewelry were from old boyfriends, he told me in a stalking case that could be a very big tip-off.  One (and only one) of these items was found in the first week after her murder, but none of the other pieces were ever located (they were, and are still gone) and Detective Glassmire was told that as well as a detailed description of these pieces.  So of course Steve and I felt the details of this arrest would be very important to find out about.  When I called Detective Glassmire to tell him about the arrest he told me he did not even know the SUSPECT had been arrested.  We never thought of it at the time, but now wonder why a report of stolen property was never filed on the missing jewelry – why?  FACT: Why was the Colorado Bureau of Investigation (CBI) not called in the morning we found Morgan’s body?  I asked Detective Glassmire that exact question, and the answer he gave me was, “if we called in the CBI on every suspicious death we would be perceived as lazy, and not wanting to do our jobs.”  What kind of answer is that?  Doesn’t every family deserve answers, especially when their daughter has a stalker with an active felony stalking case?  Especially when the morning her body is found your house has crime scene tape around it, your told it’s a crime scene, you are told they are taking her body away because she died under suspicious circumstances.  Isn’t the truth important – not only for the family of the victim, but for society in general?  If you have a suspicious death (as they called Morgan’s death, because of the ongoing felony STALKING case at the time) shouldn’t you use whatever methods you have at your disposal to arrive at the truth?  If a murder is ignored wouldn’t logic predicate that most likely that murderer will go on to murder again?  How is this fair to the next victim?  What about the protection of the citizens of the Roaring Fork Valley – will they wait until another murder happens, and just call it another suicide?  Is this why the suicide rate in that part of Colorado is so much higher than almost anywhere in the country? FACT: I know Garfield County would like people to believe there was never a stalking (pretty hard to believe since Morgan’s stalking lasted 4 months, and was an active criminal felony stalking case, with a detective assigned to the case, and plenty of evidence, footprints, video images, physical sightings, and many of her friends, friend’s parents & teachers were aware of it, etc.)  I know they want everyone to believe there was no stalker, because Sheriff Lou Vallario went out in the front of the courthouse in September 2012 and spoke into the camera of CBS News stating that his officers went out to the Ingram’s house over 50 times and never saw a STALKER.  Back then I had no idea why he would say something like that – we were still in a deep bubble of grief, the Coroner had Morgan’s manner of death listed as natural causes all those 8 months, but we intuitively felt that couldn’t be correct, and then the Coroner changed the manner of death to suicide, we knew that wasn’t correct either.  Of course the Sheriff’s Deputies wouldn’t be expected to drive up to our house, long after we called about a stalking incident, just in time to see the STALKER sitting on our lawn just waiting for them to get there…I would be shocked if they did see the stalker, but they did see, and they did receive from us many forms of evidence of the stalker over that period of time and they knew Morgan had a STALKER.  The Sheriffs are the ones that showed us the footprints outside her windows, they are the ones that pointed out to us the well worn trail in the berm behind our house that led directly to the back of our house, I even called in one of the stalking incidents (probably the closest they ever got to an apprehension) when Morgan was not even home at the time – it happened to me, and scared the hell out of me.  So why did Detective Glassmire say Morgan’s death had no connection to the stalking the very morning her body was found, and why did Sheriff Lou Vallario tell the press, 8 months after her murder, that his officers came to our house over 50 times and never saw a stalker?  Why did the Sheriff Lou Vallario state that he would never open Morgan’s case?  I thought there was no statute of limitations in a murder case?  I have never heard a law enforcement agent say they would never open a case of murder – if he wanted to believe it wasn’t murder he still could have said if new evidence is presented then her case would be opened, but that is not what was said…why?  And now why, over 2 years after Morgan’s murder do the Garfield County Sheriff’s office, and the DA’s office tell people that call them about Morgan’s case that there was never a stalker, and that Morgan committed suicide, case closed?  How are people with credible information going to be able to give that information to law enforcement if law enforcement doesn’t want to hear it?  What are they trying so hard to hide?  FACT: Morgan did have a stalker.  Steve and I lived in the same house as Morgan – we heard and experienced it with her, and believe me it was traumatic!  Her stalking was not the figment of her imagination.  Her terrorization was not only observed by others, but also recorded on security cameras placed around our home.  We lived through motion alarms (positioned all around the house) going off in the middle of the night, along with motion lights (by almost every window and door) going off and on. And again, her case was elevated to the level of a felony stalking by the Investigators due to escalating events, not by Morgan or Steve and I.  In other words, evidence was there to prove a perpetrator existed.  Patrol Officers spoke with Morgan every time they showed up, and once it turned into a felony stalking case she spoke with the Detective assigned to her case almost every Sunday, they just never wrote up the reports on every incident, and we did not know at the time to request the reports after every incident, so we had no idea that the reports were not being typed up.  None of us asked for this to happen to Morgan or our family, and just like so many other victims we had no idea what to do.   Morgan was an extremely strong young woman and was NOT driven to the point of no return.  She was scared, but also very ANGRY, and angry people do not end their own lives.  Angry people go after those who are stealing their personal joy in life. She refused to allow the stalker to stop her from going to school, work or visiting friends that needed her.  She was very careful to always have pepper spray on her, she tried to always have friends walk her to her car and have me meet her in the driveway when she returned home.  The last week of her life she tried to always have a friend stay overnight with her when she slept at home, even though we were there as well – she was frightened. The night before her murder she asked for a knife to protect herself, and Steve bought her one…it was in her bed when we found her on the morning of 12/2/2011…it was never collected by the Sheriff’s. The same night she was murdered she had a bad feeling, she was extremely scared, she tried to sleep over a friend’s house.  I never knew this for a long time until I spoke with the Aunt whose house it was.  Through tears she expressed to me that she told Morgan that she had a migraine when she came home, and did not want Morgan to sleep over – Morgan told her it was okay and not to worry. When she heard about what happened to Morgan her guilt at sending her home that night wore on her, and consumed her.  I told her it was not her fault, none of us had any way of knowing what would happen that night…this was the fault of her murderer, and no one else!  FACT: Morgan had NO alcohol and NO illegal drugs in her toxicology results, and I wouldn’t have thought there would be, but the Sheriff’s office seemed like they were prepared for just that outcome…must have been shocking to them at the time when there wasn’t anything like that in her system.  People may not want to believe what they are being told, maybe because it does not fit into what they “believe” in their view of the world, but Morgan really was a very conservative young woman, she would never even drink a sip of wine with dinner if she knew she would be driving, she had a medical marijuana permit because she wanted to be able to handle any pain she may have in a natural manner (she had hyperalgesia), she did not like prescription meds, and did not want to use marijuana unless it was legal.  Even with a medical marijuana permit she still hardly ever used it.  She did not “recreationally” use illegal, or prescription drugs.  When I was sent the 1st Postmortem Examination Report, along with the toxicology results on December 19, 2011 the only thing she did have in her blood was an extremely high level of a drug called amitriptyline.  Morgan did not have a prescription for amitriptyline, she had an old bottle that was expired.  She had taken a low dose of 25 mg years ago for chronic nerve pain, a condition that caused her to develop hyperalgesia after long-term low level exposure to Carbon Monoxide (25 mg is not used for depression, it is used for nerve pain – Morgan was NEVER diagnosed with depression).  Through diet, exercise, hyperbaric chamber treatments, and stress control, using all the methods she had learned over the years (yoga, piano, etc.), she was able to overcome this condition that had been robbing her of a normal healthy life.  She was a fighter – an extremely strong, and intelligent girl – she would not allow anything to stop her.  She loved life, and wanted to live it. FACT: Besides the accepted uses of amitriptyline it has also been used in a less desirable, nefarious way as a tool of not only date rape, but also murder.  Several high profile and many lesser reported cases throughout the world have documented the use of amitriptyline as a weapon against other humans.  This drug has been used by rapists and murderers.  That is why it is one of the drugs on laboratory sexual assault panels.  Amitriptyline not only has the ability to produce fast results in subduing a victim (when administered in medically unaccepted methods), but also is easily available, not only on the street but via online shopping.  The Coroner’s office and the Sheriff’s office are negligent in their duties as employees of the people when they choose to label a death by drugs as a “suicide” when there is no evidence to support drugs were taken willingly by the victim or with a particular intent.  “Morgan Ingram died from “amitriptyline intoxication” according to Kurtzman’s 2nd Postmortem Report, it listed her manner of death as suicide.  This is not definitive of “suicide” and the only conclusion for the Coroner’s office giving this new diagnosis of death to the public, months after Morgan’s death, is the Coroner, in an attempt to stop any further investigation by our family and friends decided to publicly discredit any information that was in direct disapproval or contradiction of his departments procedure and actions.  FACT: Morgan was murdered!  Now over 2 years after Morgan’s murder I will tell you all the biggest fact of all…neither one of the stated “manners of death” that the Coroner’s office has stated are true.  How do we know that you wonder?  Very easy, after the 1st most horrific day in our lives we had a 2nd horrific day – the day we learned that Morgan really did die “face down” as the Sheriff’s reports, and the PER’s stated…I was the first person to find her, and then Steve ran in her room, threw the blanket off her, and rolled her on her back in order to administer CPR – I found her lying on her right side, not face down, Steve saw her on her right side as well, we told the first responders this fact when asked, we also told the Sheriff’s and Detective Glassmire – they were all told this on that very morning before we were asked to leave our house as the crime scene tape was put up.  In fact I described in detail that she was lying on her right side, with the blanket only partially up her arm.  1/2 her bare arm and shoulder were exposed, I shook her shoulder and realized she was not responding.  I ran out of her room and yelled for Steve to come right away.  Steve ran in her room, with me leading the way, pulled her blanket off, which is when we both saw that her eyes were wide open, knees pulled slightly up, elbows bent and hands clenched.  Steve rolled her on her back and started CPR.  I also told everyone that I thought her body had looked “posed”.  The reason for this was that she was on the opposite side of the bed from where she usually slept in an unusual sleeping position.  I had never seen her sleep like that – little things like that you “know” more than think at the time.  We tried many times to have this statement corrected on her PER’s to reflect the correct position her body was found in, but to no avail.  We did not know the significance of this one thing at the time, but now we know it is huge piece of evidence!  We have now been told…NO – BODIES DO NOT MOVE ON THEIR OWN Morgan’s murderer posed her body after lividity had already set in, now that we have discovered this fact we had no choice but to accept the fact that there is no question that she was murdered.  How could she have died from natural causes or suicide if her body was moved after death?  It can’t happen – someone else was in her room and moved her body after she was already dead, what we didn’t release until recently is that the Garfield County Sheriff’s knew that very morning while they “investigated” her death scene after interviewing Steve and I, because we told them that we found her on her right side.  Are we furious?  You’d better believe it, and you should be as well.  Now find, arrest and convict her murderer – do not wait until there is another body Garfield County – you now have less than 90 days to remedy this situation! Steve and I have tried to engage the community and raise awareness of stalking and it’s consequences.  When laws are passed at the Federal and State level in order to protect victims of stalking from ending up like Morgan, and those laws are ignored by law enforcement what is the remedy?  We have known so many amazing law enforcement agents over the course of our lives – true unsung heroes, so we were not prepared to have been failed so miserably in Morgan’s case.  We want justice in order to create change.  Having great anti-stalking laws on the books is wonderful but what happens when they are not enforced?  How do regular citizens get help when law enforcement will not even speak with them, or answer their letters, or look at the evidence that they have uncovered and presented all on their own?  We will continue down this path of releasing ALL the facts in this case until Morgan’s case is opened, investigated and justice is served.  We will NEVER stop, and we will NEVER give up.  Morgan deserves justice, her family deserves closure, her friends want the truth to come out, and no one wants a predator to get away with murder. Morgan was a warrior and had conviction.

Never Giving Up Morgan

Never Giving Up Morgan

I will keep blogging with more, and more facts in the days to come…it is not pretty, and I wish I didn’t have to share this with the public (it literally makes me ill), but it seems like this is the only way.  The more people that know the TRUTH the better chance that there will be justice for Morgan, and others some day.  Please stay strong with us as this “mystery” that is no longer a “mystery” unfolds.  Thank you all for your support!

Life Along the Road to Justice for Morgan

So much of what happens in Morgan’s story of her stalking and murder happens behind the scenes.  While I understand the need for that, what mother who lost her child could not have such an ever growing anger with it all the same, I have wanted to let it all out as I learned about every fact, every piece of evidence, but I also felt that only law enforcement should know and act upon it.  The always present fact that, “only the murderer could know.”

Morgan was up front with the world, as anyone who knew her at all knows all too well.  Guessing where Morgan was coming from, or how she felt was not a part of her make-up.  That on top of her stalking, and then being robbed of her life, of everything she held for the world, and that it has become such a fight to bring any detail to the light of day is beyond wrong.  At what point does the incompetence, and lack of investigation cross into beyond incompetence, beyond not caring, and even sinister?  This is for others with the investigative power to question, and hold accountable the “authorities,” acting under “the color of law.”

I perhaps was forced to chew on my inner lip in silence for far too long when the wonderful writer that did an interview for Yahoo about Morgan long ago asked me for an update.  I just answered with facts that are now known and should be shared.  And I now feel a weight has been lifted from my shoulders.

What happened to Morgan the four months of her stalking, the night of her murder, as well as the attempts of others to pretend that it never happened will never really sit right with me, so I want to share the interview with you all, with some of its new, and so horribly painful facts about Morgans death.  My last real blog about her case reached 300,000 of caring readers in the week that it came out, and for all of you who I feel share Morgan’s story for the good it can bring, BRAVO, she would want you to know how much she loves you, each and every one or you, and I want to heap onto that how much your support means to Steve and I – we would not have the strength to continue on without all your support.

Please read the interview or copy and paste this into your browser – Exclusive Interview with Toni Ingram, a mother with a voice and a message
Link:  http://www.sarahafshar.com/2012/12/exclusive-interview-with-toni-ingram.html
and share it with others you know, especially anyone who might be experiencing stalking and is in need of help – people need to know stalking is serious and can have deadly outcomes.

And so many thanks to Sarah Afshar for all of her unending support and love for such a beautiful young woman that she was never able to meet, but has come to know so well.

Hear our story tonight at 5:00 pm on CBS 4 Denver and again at 10:00 pm

Toady we where interviewed by Jeff Todd from CBS 4 Denver who was interested to hear about Morgan’s story and the mistreatment from the coroner’s and sheriff’s department here in Garfield county.  The segment will be on the 5:00 PM News hour on CBS 4 (KCNC-TV) Denver.  The support has been pouring in from all over the country and we truly can’t thank you enough. Please tune in!

http://denver.cbslocal.com/